im so sad!! just need to get it out.
hi girls, i know its fri night and hope i dont depress you all. oh just gone out and just need to let this off my chest.
when i was 8months pg my grandma died and i was devastated as she had helped bring us up and we were so close. over the years she had developed dementia and was very forgetful but up until a week before she died she knew who we all were. it was made worse by the fact that she was the only 1 who was happy when i fell pg.
then just as i was gettin over that oh lost his job just before xmas and so we were worryin bout that, then i was diagnosed with pnd and have also developed anxiety and i am havin to go back to work earlier than planned as we cant afford any longer. also as my grandma left us some money we are not entitled to any benefits, i have to use that on bloody bills.
just to top it off last week got a call to tell me that my grandmas ashes had never been scattered so have to go tomorrow for them to be scattered, all the wounds have now been reopened and im feelin so sad. to make matters worse i feel i have no1 to talk to as dont want to worry oh as he has enough on, family not close by and my best mate is pg so dont want to depress her.
sorry for going on but just needed to vent somewhere.
thanks for all your support in the past with some of these issues.xxx
when i was 8months pg my grandma died and i was devastated as she had helped bring us up and we were so close. over the years she had developed dementia and was very forgetful but up until a week before she died she knew who we all were. it was made worse by the fact that she was the only 1 who was happy when i fell pg.
then just as i was gettin over that oh lost his job just before xmas and so we were worryin bout that, then i was diagnosed with pnd and have also developed anxiety and i am havin to go back to work earlier than planned as we cant afford any longer. also as my grandma left us some money we are not entitled to any benefits, i have to use that on bloody bills.
just to top it off last week got a call to tell me that my grandmas ashes had never been scattered so have to go tomorrow for them to be scattered, all the wounds have now been reopened and im feelin so sad. to make matters worse i feel i have no1 to talk to as dont want to worry oh as he has enough on, family not close by and my best mate is pg so dont want to depress her.
sorry for going on but just needed to vent somewhere.
thanks for all your support in the past with some of these issues.xxx
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i know you don't want to worry your oh, but at the endof the day you are a partnership and i'm sure he'dwant to be involved in your feelings, whether good or bad. what ever you do don't go through the bad times alone...i hope you're feeling better soon. take care BB x
Im sorry to hear you are feeling so down and sorry to hear of the passing of your grandma. I also have PND so can relate on some level with that. I dont really have any words of wisdom, but didnt want to read and run.
I hope things start to look up for you soon hunni, take care
xxxxxhugsxxxx
Your post really hits home for me as my Nan was like my Mum and when we lost her in 2006 (2 weeks after our m/mc) I never thought I'd cope or be happy or enjoy anything again. Sounds over dramatic but I thought my world had just ended.
I also felt the same about not having anyone to talk to. Oh is lovely and everything but not the listening kind or so I thought.
I would say you really need to talk to your oh. I know mine knew how unhappy I was (and still am to some extent) and was just waiting for me to start the converastion.
Will be thinking about you tomorrow, but like you say it may help you grieve and I bet she'll be chuffed to bits she's helped you book you wedding! Take care babe xxx
Your post really hits home for me as my Nan was like my Mum and when we lost her in 2006 (2 weeks after our m/mc) I never thought I'd cope or be happy or enjoy anything again. Sounds over dramatic but I thought my world had just ended.
I also felt the same about not having anyone to talk to. Oh is lovely and everything but not the listening kind or so I thought.
I would say you really need to talk to your oh. I know mine knew how unhappy I was (and still am to some extent) and was just waiting for me to start the converastion.
Will be thinking about you tomorrow, but like you say it may help you grieve and I bet she'll be chuffed to bits she's helped you book you wedding! Take care babe xxx
love and hugs to you all, oh and lo sends a big wet kiss. (hes woken up as he has an awful cold-poor baby).xxx