i think im goin mad

im sick of not havin my af, iv done my 5th pg test today and its negative. il be really honest gettin pg wouldnt be ideal at this point as lo is only 8 months old and we have the smallest house in the world but i have nt had af for 9 weeks. i hate been a woman...roar and breathe.lol. pointless post but i feel like im goin a bit mad.xxx