Worried the consultant will push me backwards
I'm seeing the consultant this week at long last, and although I've been desperate to have the answers I'm now scared that any progress I've made in not breaking down every 2minutes will slip away and I'll be back to square one.
I was just wondering if when any of you got your consultant appt, did it give you some sort of closure or the complete opposite? I don't know what answers I want but I've almost numbed myself and pushed the whole thing out of reality (which may be s really bad thing to do?) and Im scare this is going to force all my pain for Angel back into the open!
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I was just wondering if when any of you got your consultant appt, did it give you some sort of closure or the complete opposite? I don't know what answers I want but I've almost numbed myself and pushed the whole thing out of reality (which may be s really bad thing to do?) and Im scare this is going to force all my pain for Angel back into the open!
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I've not been given an appointment to see a consultant, I have a bereavment midwife who phone's me regularly to see how I am, but she said it was up to me if I want to see my doctor. She called yesterday to say that some of the blood tests have come back and all is normal, including the chromosome test they did on me and my partner, which was a massive relief. Although it doesn't give us answers as to why Ewan died, it does tell us that we are ok to try again as we don't have any physical problems.
I hope you get on ok with the consultant and they give you the news you want to hear. From my experience over the last few weeks anything can trigger your pain, sometimes it's just a smile from someone i've not seen since it happened that does it to me.
Good luck and let us know how you get on xx
Did you get anywhere with looking for a bereavement councellor? Maybe this is something you could ask your consultant about if not?
Big hugs coming your way, you'll be in my thoughts and prayers this week hun. Let us know how you get on. xxxx
I did got to the consultant about 4 weeks after my loss. I found it hard & to be honest it didn't put my mind at rest.....but I am glad I went. I totally understand about putting the event in the back of your mind & just getting on with day to day living.....I think that must be normal. If you do decide to go, please let us know how you get on.
Take care xxxx
Oh and I have decided the only way we're now going to be able to get on with lives is act like we never opted for autopsy and leave everything to fate, I've already been told my bloods were all fine so in theory would be low risk next time! Eugh my mind is going around in circles as to how we should react/feel now!
Just wondering how you are? Have they given you a date yet? I had a call on Tuesday, no indication of the post mortem results, just advising me that it would still be a couple of months wait!!
Anyway, hope you're ok xx