So I have known that I have had PCOS since I was 16 years old, I am now 26. I never really thought about the infertility issues until I got married this year and realized I might never get to have my own child. PCOS makes me feel like I'm a failure and that I am not truly a female because I can't get pregnant. Today was a really bad day for me, because I found out my husband's cousin is pregnant with her second child, without even trying to get pregnant. She gave up her first child because she didn't want the baby. Every where I look I see women with newborns or they are pregnant. I get so mad at them, even though I know I should be happy about their good fortune. I know it's the hormones making me feel this way, but it still doesn't soften the blow. I have nobody to talk to about this, not even my husband. I know he would understand but he doesn't know what it feels like to know that I might never get to hold my child. He has 2 children from a previous relationship. I love both of them but sometimes it feels like I'm not part of the family. I cry when he isn't around so that he doesn't feel sorry for me or try to placate me. I don't want him to know how I feel like I am dragging him down by not being able to conceive. Does anyone else feel this way?