babies, trying and grief all rolled into one!
hi girls. as a few of you know from me being on here a while, its been a bit of a rollercoaster for me lately. i lost my amazing dad in april and before that, had a lot of trouble with my SIL when she got pregnant. we made up after dad died and she had a beautiful little boy on sunday. he is amazing and i love being an auntie. its just now i feel so sad!!im not sure if its the grief talking, but she is there with a little baby i've been longing for (which makes me mega broody) and i'm dissappointed that its not me, like a selfish little madam. then i look at her dad and feel like my kids wont have a grandad and i'm not sure if i want to do this baby thing without my dad its so god damn horrible feeling like this... sorry for the long long post, i think i just needed to talk xx