Really Low
As some of you know, I've been ttc#2 properly for 10 months now, although it's been over a year since we stopped using contraception. And I know, some people have been ttc longer than me and I know that I have been blessed with one already. But I feel really, really low at the moment.
My heart breaks a little each month and a bit more every time someone in RL announces a pregnancy. Three friends have had babies since we started trying as well as my younger brother, two colleagues have announced pregancies [one sits right opposite me and I have to face her every day] and now my cousin is accidentally expecting #2 [#1 is only 8 months old]. This last announcement has really been the straw that has broken the camel's back. Since hearing about it, I have just wanted to lie in bed all day but I have managed to drag myself up each morning to face the world.
I feel like I'm a zombie, that life is passing me by whilst all I can think about is ttc. I feel bad that I'm not 100% there for DS because of it. I don't know how to feel better about it all.
I don't want to bring anyone down with me. I just wondered how you cope with it all?
My heart breaks a little each month and a bit more every time someone in RL announces a pregnancy. Three friends have had babies since we started trying as well as my younger brother, two colleagues have announced pregancies [one sits right opposite me and I have to face her every day] and now my cousin is accidentally expecting #2 [#1 is only 8 months old]. This last announcement has really been the straw that has broken the camel's back. Since hearing about it, I have just wanted to lie in bed all day but I have managed to drag myself up each morning to face the world.
I feel like I'm a zombie, that life is passing me by whilst all I can think about is ttc. I feel bad that I'm not 100% there for DS because of it. I don't know how to feel better about it all.
I don't want to bring anyone down with me. I just wondered how you cope with it all?
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i dont know what to say except that i feel the same at times. I have had such low periods where i felt like life was passing me by and i am not even a down kind of person usually.
i AM feeling better at the moment so i do think that some phases in ttc are harder than others. I am hoping that you will feel a bit brighter soon enough.
I think it is good to take some control of ttc in some way - i cant remember if you have a cbfm or use opks or temp? I do think that having a bit of control helps your mind to stay in control.
And also to make yourself believe that it can happen for you - i know this is particularly hard when ttc for so long but there is no reason that it wont or cant. As cunuckmom says - believe you can conceive!
I am sending you big hugs xx
You will feel better soon honey, I'm sure of it, just try & take back some control & give your DS lots & lots of cuddles
Lots f love curls xx
Just know that you will get there, concentrate on your son and remember all of the great things about being a Mum and you will get there x