Emotional wreck :(
I am so up and down It feels kind of strange that I'm grieving for a baby I never even knew I had until it was gone, and that seems to be making me feel guilty like I should have somehow known it was there or something. I feel awful that I can never tell the baby I love it, or know anything about him or her. I've not had a m/c before but I'm guessing these are all pretty normal reactions.
Then I feel really guilty that I'm upset because I'm so lucky to still have a baby in there who is hanging on for just now, although to be honest there is so much blood I'm kind of wondering how anyone could survive through it. But right now as far as I'm aware it's still there, have a scan on the 14th to see what is going on then.
And I feel guilty because so many people want to have a baby and can't, and here I am crying because one of my two didn't make it.
Where did all this guilt come from? I don't like it, I want to stop crying, and for this bit to be over, and to stop bleeding, and to see my baby still alive at the scan in 2 weeks.
Sorry probably a bit of a pointless post, I think my hormones are a bit wacky too
Hope everyone else is a bit happier than me today!! xxx
Then I feel really guilty that I'm upset because I'm so lucky to still have a baby in there who is hanging on for just now, although to be honest there is so much blood I'm kind of wondering how anyone could survive through it. But right now as far as I'm aware it's still there, have a scan on the 14th to see what is going on then.
And I feel guilty because so many people want to have a baby and can't, and here I am crying because one of my two didn't make it.
Where did all this guilt come from? I don't like it, I want to stop crying, and for this bit to be over, and to stop bleeding, and to see my baby still alive at the scan in 2 weeks.
Sorry probably a bit of a pointless post, I think my hormones are a bit wacky too
Hope everyone else is a bit happier than me today!! xxx
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I hope everything works out in 2 weeks time. If you feel you need something else to focus on think about that little life they saw on the scan and that there is something to hope for still.
I hope I haven't said the wrong thing my husband is always moaning that I am always putting my big fat foot in it. We are always here when you need to vent x x x
I hope the next 2 weeks fly by for you, so you can then have the reassurance of seeing that little heartbeat.
Sending lots & lots of love and hugs. xxxxxxx
I don't know if it will give you any comfort at all but my friend had the same thing happen when I was pregnant with ds and she has a beautiful, healthy 2.5 year old daughter.
Take some time and let your emotions lead you, nothing you feel will be wrong.
xx
forgot to say crying is not a bad thing at least you know where you are when i said live for now i mean if you need to cry cry if you need to just sit on your own do it just do what you feel is right as everyone deal with it in there own way
like others have said go with how you are feeling and you will start to feel better i promise xxx