My pregnancy after stillbirth at 26 weeks!
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I wrote a blog post on my stillbirth story which I'm going to copy and paste here, so if it doesn't make sense in some spots it was directed to friends and family! Feel free to ask questions though! Sorry that it's so long..
My story starts on January 18th 2013 when I did a pregnancy test and surprise surprise it came back positive, but for my baby her story had started 8 weeks ago. Being only 17 this was such a shock for me and I was so scared, I think I would have still been petrified even if I was 30 to be honest, I'd heard so many horror stories of pregnancy loss I knew I would never be able to deal with it. The second I saw that positive pregnancy test I loved my baby with everything I had. My pregnancy went well, at my 12 week scan I found out that I was actually 15 weeks which was great because I couldn't wait to meet my baby and that just cut off 3 weeks. I had no morning sickness other than vomiting once on christmas morning (I had no idea why) and then once when I was about 16 weeks. I put on no weight which was surprising because I was eating a lot, but I've never been able to put on weight. Thats a whole other story! I absolutely hated the thought of even going near McDonalds and the thought of eating a burger or anything from there made me need to vomit. Smells were way too overwhelming for me that I even had to buy roll on deoderant and stop wearing perfume altogether because it as just uhhh, too much! At 18 weeks exactly I started to feel little kicks, it was the most amazing feeling ever and one I will never forget. Time seemed to be flying by and before I knew it, I was 20 weeks pregnant and heading to my 20 week scan. They checked everything and my baby was absolutely perfect, SHE was perfect. I was so surprised as I swore I was having a boy. One week later as I set up her tallboy that I'd bought that day I noticed I hadn't felt her kick like normal, me being the google freak that I am, googled it. Most answers said 'oh 21 weeks my baby did that too and she's fine' or 'go get checked just to make sure' so I did just that. A midwife used a doppler to try and find the heartbeat, after about half an hour she assured me everything was fine and sent me home, even though we hadn't heard the heartbeat clearly she told me that she was obviously close to my back and hard to find, which explained the pain I'd had earlier that day. I went home happy to be reassured, but I was still a little scared. I drank cold water, orange juice, jumped around but I felt nothing. She had been a very active baby, I knew something wasn't right. 3 weeks went by (no movement, but I had been reassured everything was okay so I believed that everything was okay) I went to my 24 week appointment, my sister came with me. A new midwife did all the normal stuff, she organised for me to have my glucose test done, all that. She did a doppler also, but she couldn't find the heartbeat. She then also reassured me that everything was fine and it was normal. I knew that nothing was normal about it, but I trusted them to know what they were talking about. On the 25th of May 2013 I had my 26 week appointment, I had a midwife who was so enthusiastic and asked if I wanted to see my baby. My mum was with me at this appointment and was concerned about me not feeling movement. We went into the ultrasound room and there was my baby, curled up in a little ball right down the bottom. The midwife told me she might have just been sleeping, I told her that i'd felt no movements so she called in a midwife that had been a midwife for 20 years. She seemed so busy, she came in, looked at the screen for 2
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**sorry that it's so long I didn't realise it was novel long! An update on my story is that the guy I was with turned out to be cheating on me before my pregnancy, during my pregnancy and while I was at home alone mourning the loss of our child a few days after I gave birth to her. Was a horrible thing to go through but I moved on quick smart because I knew it wasn't my fault. Its almost a year and a half later and my boyfriend now (we've been friends for 4 years and together for 9 months!) are 13 weeks pregnant with a new baby! I'm super excited, very scared but keeping my fingers crossed for a healthy pregnancy. Thanks for reading my story and hope to chat with you ladies soon!
Such a sad story I'm so sorry. I hope u get ur happy ending Hun x
Thank you for sharing your story, Ella has a very brave Mum indeed.
I lost my son Ethan and gave birth via induced labour last Thursday. I found out at week 20 that he no longer had a heartbeat. The hospital were really great, but I am walking around under a very dark cloud at the moment, feeling very lost without him.
I am really pleased to hear that you are expecting again and I wish you all the very best.
Take care
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Such a strong girl for telling your story xxx I too had a still born at 36 weeks on July 29th 2014 My little girl Evié she was just perfect too postmortem results said there was no cause of death at all they said it could have happend at any time like she could have been born and she maybe would have died with sids its been a hard strugle for us Iam only 22 but i felt exactly like you I was frozen Numb trying to do anything to take my mind off the situation then the next day boom it a hit me like a ton of bricks the shittest hardest heartbreaking feeling the pain hurted so bad! But I'm 13weeks pregnant with our rainbow baby Iam terrified bit I'm sure lightening won't strike on me twice xx God bless and hope everything goes well for you xxxxx
Very brave for sharing your story!