I've made a decision about my maternity leave
I always planned to start maternity leave on the 16th July and use leave so that I would actually stop work at the end of June. However I am struggling so much that I can not physically cope with getting up at 0430, going on a train for 2 hrs, working from 0700 to 1530 and then another 2 hr train journey home.
I'm guessing I could probably have faffed around getting signed off sick but have decided just to use annual leave so finish at the end of May. I will have slightly less leave to use upon returning but will use paternity leave if I don't feel ready to go back. It also means that when we get back from our holiday in 2 weeks time I will only have 2 weeks left at work.
Have emailed my manager today so it is now all official.