Hello to those who remember me and hi to those who don't!
I don't really know where to start except by saying that it's been a life changing few months since I lasted posted here. I thought long and hard about disappearing altogether but then decided that sharing my story and my experience may be helpful for others. One thing that MD/Hitched taught me is that there is a community of people out there that can help you through your toughest times and for that I am extremely grateful and so I return!
Since the death of my daughter Rhema and subsequent counselling I'm nearly back on my feet and it's a good thing too as three weeks ago, H and I found out that I'm pregnant again! I'm now 13+2 and so far everything is ok.
This pregnancy was unplanned, a surprise and totally not what we we're ready for but we've spent three long weeks debating how we're going to deal with this and we're hopeful that with continued counselling and taking things one step at a time, this pregnancy will have a positive outcome. I'm battling a high risk pregnancy. The risk of early onset PE is high and I'm taking clexane injections daily along with aspirin in the hope that if the dreaded PE does return, it's much later and more manageable. If I'm going to be brutally honest, we're not ready for this baby. Emotionally, we're still grieving and the trauma of my daughter's birth hasn't dulled in any way. I'm hoping that as time goes by, this baby will bring back some of the joy I felt when I was pregnant last time.
Until then, I'm here hoping for much of the same support I received when I was pregnant with Rhema and to offer some support to any other High Risk mummies to be.
A big thanks goes to Bliss and SANDS for all their support and if anyone is suffering with the loss of a child, I recommend you get in touch with them ASAP.
Congrats to all the new mummies, I'll be catching up over the next few days and hope to reacquaint myself with you all.