Another pregnancy all alone
I'm really not trying to play the victim but Im struggling to cope. I had a baby last year by domestic violence and so left him when I was 6 months pregnant it was very violent so he has no contact with the baby, doesnt pay left me alone at 19 years old With a baby. He also raped me when I was 8 months pregnant, something I've found extremely hard to deal with. I met someone (That I'd known from school) When my daughter was 1 month old. Everything was great at the start he was perfect and this was BEFORE I had done any therapy for the domestic violence and so I didn't know the warning signs to look out for.
Now 10 months down the line Im pregnant with this mans baby, he has been horrible about it he's told me to drink bleach, he calls me all sorts of names, he was telling me that now he loves black girls (Im half white and asian so hes just saying it to hurt me) he went into detail about how and why he likes having sex with them. He wouldnt stop so I slapped him. He then poured an entire carton of milk all over me. Before this when I wasnt pregnant he has trashed my house and hit me with my daughter in the house. Hes spat on me. In my face.
Im now depressed and miserable and overwhelmed. How can I go through another pregnancy all alone. How can I have a baby with a man like this. This poor baby, both of my babies have disgusting dads that treat women like that, its all my fault. I cant get rid of this baby I had a horrendous miscarriage before Im just so scared.