Another month not conceived feel heart broken

Hi my names katie me and my partner have been trying for a baby 2 years in March (had coil removed) toon around a year to have my periods any kind of normal for the last 10 months they been around 26-28 days in between this month I gone to 31 days I started to get my hopes up kinda yesterday ordered a test which will come Saturday and started bleeding about an hour ago well spotting but it’s it’s how it starts for me anyway I feel I got no1 to talk to about it as I don’t want to do my friends head in it’s really starting to make me wanna give up I been referred to fertility clinic am still waiting should be around next month ( would of been sooner but the doctor who referred me the first time made a mistake and it never got sent off) am 36 years old my partners 30 we do have a child each from a previous relationships both 13 and together a 5 and 4 year old but we really want just 1 more if you got this far thanks for reading just need to get it if my chest how absolutely heart broken I am this month I think the fact I was this late and started getting excited to just come on anyway feel like my body just wants to trick me xxx