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No birthday pressie for me. :cry:
So much for being a good girl and not buying a test - would have been a waste of money anyway as AF arrived last night while i was working. Its bad enough she arrived, but she caught me unawares 4 days early as well, while I was training a new guy!
I'm so fed up and down about it. we had done everything right this month, even down to not drinking much at all (maybe one pint one day, two a diff day at most - even when we were out for marks birthday i only had 1 glass of wine) and still a big fat F off from mother nature.
I dont even know if were gonna bother trying next month as I'm not sure i can take another BFN/af.
I feel partly selfish becaus i know lots of ladies on this site have been trying longer and been through worse than me, but also partly jealous because i keep seeing BFPs and thinking that should be me.
I dont even know what my body is doing now because af arrived on CD30 of what i thought (going by the last two months after my mc) was a 34 day cycle. So is my body returning to its original 28 day cycle or going on a completely different one again? How the hell am I supposed to start trying when i dont even know how long my cycle is and roughly when i'm going to ov if i do at all?
We done the having sex as often as possible (much to hubbys enjoyment) and the restricting it to 3 times a week like different stupid docs have suggested, I used the ov tests on a couple of months and i ov then.
I just dont know what else there is we can do.
I'm sat here in tears because i so deserately want another baby. I'm sorry ladies.
I think i'm gonna have to stay away for a while because as happy as i am for all you BFPs i just cant face seeing another one at the moment.
I hope everyone else gets what they want soon.
Good luck and baby dust to everyone.
Stephe
xxxx
I'm so fed up and down about it. we had done everything right this month, even down to not drinking much at all (maybe one pint one day, two a diff day at most - even when we were out for marks birthday i only had 1 glass of wine) and still a big fat F off from mother nature.
I dont even know if were gonna bother trying next month as I'm not sure i can take another BFN/af.
I feel partly selfish becaus i know lots of ladies on this site have been trying longer and been through worse than me, but also partly jealous because i keep seeing BFPs and thinking that should be me.
I dont even know what my body is doing now because af arrived on CD30 of what i thought (going by the last two months after my mc) was a 34 day cycle. So is my body returning to its original 28 day cycle or going on a completely different one again? How the hell am I supposed to start trying when i dont even know how long my cycle is and roughly when i'm going to ov if i do at all?
We done the having sex as often as possible (much to hubbys enjoyment) and the restricting it to 3 times a week like different stupid docs have suggested, I used the ov tests on a couple of months and i ov then.
I just dont know what else there is we can do.
I'm sat here in tears because i so deserately want another baby. I'm sorry ladies.
I think i'm gonna have to stay away for a while because as happy as i am for all you BFPs i just cant face seeing another one at the moment.
I hope everyone else gets what they want soon.
Good luck and baby dust to everyone.
Stephe
xxxx
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Filo x
I'm sure we can all understand how you feel about seeing the other BFPs on here... its a natural feeling.
I know its hard, but try and keep up the PMA - it will happen for you when its right and when its meant to.
Joo xxx
i hope that you find some PMA (mine usually disappears CD1) over the next few days and that you come back with some good news.
big hugs hun xxx
Maybe you should just take some time out for a while. Don't stop ttc but maybe stop coming on here and worrying and constantly thinking about ttc. Just bd as you have been doing and keep yourself busy with other things. Go on holiday or anything to take your mind off things.
I know it's hard and I hope you get your BFP soon and that, if you do decide you need some time away from this site, that you come back and tell us when you do get your BFP!!
Good luck honey.
xxxx
Keep your chin up and start planning the BD'ing for next month.
xxx
but on a positive note maybe your cycles are getting back to normal which could mean your on the right road for BFP!!!
if you need a break from here then you should do it, just know that we're hear if you ever need to shout scream or just talk!!!
take care!!!
xx
Im really sorry af found you. Maybe a break from here is just what you need. Take some time-out and relax, dont chart or look for signs, just have fun with your hubby and enjoy some relaxed bd'g.
Take care hun, hope to see you around soon with good news. xx