i cnt be doin with him any more y does he do this to me???

as im writing this im in tears bcoz of him again!!
after countless arguments over the phone this week bein told im a bad mother and pathetic i need to grow up and im useless im not sayin i havnt said horrible things to him i have but i also say sorry wen i knw im out of order.
then last nite wen i spoke to him about havin lo today and we seem to be gettin sum were then he turns up tday and just shouts at me! i asked him not to give lo jar food any more just bcoz hes too old 4 it n he could easyily cook sumthing for him (hes 10 months old) i ask him to bath him tnite and he says he cnt he doesnt knw how?? yet he managed wen we were tgeva to bath lo!!! he also knws how to climb stairs (obv i dnt leave him to walk up the stairs alone) and i get told im stupid he moans that i dnt stop him climbin his toys but how the hell do i stop him doin these things?? hes 10 months old and he walks every were wen he can b botherd!!
then we had an argement in front of lo i knw we shudnt n i feel so bad now!! n he just walked out with jake n didnt let me say bye to him n hes not bk until tmra n im so scared he wnt bring him bk!! silly i knw!!
i just wish i cud cut him out all together i wish id never met him!!