Help - Feeling very confused and upset
Hi Ladies
I'm hoping that someone can tell me that I'm not going mad!
I had an ERPC following a MMC (at 7-8 weeks) on the 26th May, which was upsetting enough, but since then I have done a number of HPT (Clear Blue with Concetpion Indicator ones), to check my hrmone levels were coming down and in the hope that I woud get a BFN so Hubby and I can draw a line under what has been a very upsetting time and move on.
I did the first test a week after op and it still showed a 3+ weeks pregnant, a week later I tested again and it had dropped to 1-2 weekd pregnant, and I thought great it's heading in the right direction!!! I have tested again today in the hopes that I would now finally have a negative but the test said it had gone back up to between 2-3 weeks pregnant!!!!
I called the EPU and the Doctor has said that I should test again on Monday and if it still shows as positive I have to go back in for another scan, and if it still shows something remaining I may have to have another ERPC (
I'm just feeling so confused, upset, angry and useless - I want my body back so we can try again. I don't know if I'm just being impatient, but am really worried as sitting here typing this.
Has anyone else had or heard of this happening???
Thanks for reading.
Cxx
I'm hoping that someone can tell me that I'm not going mad!
I had an ERPC following a MMC (at 7-8 weeks) on the 26th May, which was upsetting enough, but since then I have done a number of HPT (Clear Blue with Concetpion Indicator ones), to check my hrmone levels were coming down and in the hope that I woud get a BFN so Hubby and I can draw a line under what has been a very upsetting time and move on.
I did the first test a week after op and it still showed a 3+ weeks pregnant, a week later I tested again and it had dropped to 1-2 weekd pregnant, and I thought great it's heading in the right direction!!! I have tested again today in the hopes that I would now finally have a negative but the test said it had gone back up to between 2-3 weeks pregnant!!!!
I called the EPU and the Doctor has said that I should test again on Monday and if it still shows as positive I have to go back in for another scan, and if it still shows something remaining I may have to have another ERPC (
I'm just feeling so confused, upset, angry and useless - I want my body back so we can try again. I don't know if I'm just being impatient, but am really worried as sitting here typing this.
Has anyone else had or heard of this happening???
Thanks for reading.
Cxx
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Absolutely no chance what so ever that I could be pregnant - we haven't done the deed in about 8 weeks, which is just before I found out I was pregnant as boobs were so sore and then morning sickness kicked in followed by spotting and then the ERPC etc!!!! Wanted to make sure I got a negative test before we tried again so we knew more or less where we stood should I be lucky enough to fall pg again quickly!
So the lack of intimacy at the moment is also getting me down - I know it sounds silly but just don't feel like a real woman at the moment as nothing seems to be working properly!!!!
C xx ?
No they didn't check me for ectopic as we saw our little bean in the correct place at our first early scan at 6+2 - before it all went wrong!!! And between the 1st and 2nd scan our little bean had trebled in size before it's heart stopped
So I don't think they're thing along those lines if anything they seem the ERPC didn't get everything. EIther that or I had a dodgy pg test when I got the low reading and I'm panicing over nothing (hopefully!!!).
C xx
PS just read your other thread - fingers crossed for you!
xx
Ps, thank you!
I hope you get there in the end.
Sarah
Nurse asked me to go to the loo before the scan (TMI - Sorry!) and after I'd been decide to do a pregnancy test first and wanted me to go again straight away!!!! Still I managed to just!!! Off she went and did a test and it came back negative (FINALLY!!!!), so no scan needed apparently, but she did send me for a blood test to check my hCG levels, will hopefully get those results tomorrow and may have to have another one depending on the results.
But hopefully I'm heading in the right direction now!!!
Cxx
Not really sure what to write as its good to hear you finally have a negative but also really sad - hopefully you can start to move on a bit, when you are ready
wishing you well
daisyx
Just one other thing (and sorry it's tmi!!!) they said after the ERPC that I may bleed for up to 14 days. I only bled (red blood) for 24 - 48 hours. Since then I've only had pink or brown (old blood?) discharge every so often when I wipe to varying degrees. It's now been 3 weeks sice op and wondered how long this happpens for.
I mentioned it at the hospital yesterday and they didn't seem to worried, but I forgot to ask how long is not normal!!! Was in too much of a state about being back in the EPU again - was by myself this time and it hit me harder than I had expected!!!
Hugs
C xx