my worst nitemare!!!
hi everyone,
i dont cum here very often but for those of u who dont know i lost my little girl in jan this yr, she only lived a few hrs, i went into prem labour 24 weeks following an infection (chorioamnionitis), anyway my probs started with bleeding that just didnt stop.
well i am 21 +2 and was in hospital 2 nites ago due to bleeding!!!!
i had a tiny bit of pink discharge last week and kinda tried to ignore it , i know u can all imagine the sheer panic and terror i was going through i just thought here we go again!!! wen on monday morn i woke up 2 blood!!
well good news is it has stopped almost! i had a scan on my cervix which showed it was still long and closed and they dont know the cause of the bleed as i wouldnt let them do a speculum as had a very bad experience last time with a women doin it and im sure she done more harm than good. but am hoping its just a cervical erosion or something like that !!
well i was begining to relax a little and now im so negative again!!!
i need to be put out and wake up in may !!! lol
anyway thanx 4 listening xx
Lisa
xx
i dont cum here very often but for those of u who dont know i lost my little girl in jan this yr, she only lived a few hrs, i went into prem labour 24 weeks following an infection (chorioamnionitis), anyway my probs started with bleeding that just didnt stop.
well i am 21 +2 and was in hospital 2 nites ago due to bleeding!!!!
i had a tiny bit of pink discharge last week and kinda tried to ignore it , i know u can all imagine the sheer panic and terror i was going through i just thought here we go again!!! wen on monday morn i woke up 2 blood!!
well good news is it has stopped almost! i had a scan on my cervix which showed it was still long and closed and they dont know the cause of the bleed as i wouldnt let them do a speculum as had a very bad experience last time with a women doin it and im sure she done more harm than good. but am hoping its just a cervical erosion or something like that !!
well i was begining to relax a little and now im so negative again!!!
i need to be put out and wake up in may !!! lol
anyway thanx 4 listening xx
Lisa
xx
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yes i work but work at home so not too bad,
i have a daughter who is 4 and that pregnancy was textbook!! infact she was 2 weeks late!!! this little one is a boy! .. i havnt told my daughter (frankie ) yet.. as last time i told her after the 20 week scan and she was so exited and so dissapointed and hurt wen i had to tell her her baby sister went to heaven, heartbreaking!
im getting quite a bump now tho so i think she will be guessing soon but im desperate for her not to know yet.. dont wanna get her hopes up.. especially after last week, was hoping to keep it under wraps till her birthday on 27 march ill be bout 33 weeks i think???... not sure i will be able to hide it tho lol!!
well what will be will be ...... (keep telling myself that!)
Lisaxx
Can completely understand you not wanting to tell frankie, we were fortunate in that although we spoke to zachariah about being a big brother, he was far too young to understand and so it hadn't affected him other than seeing mummy and daddy cry lots! I really hope you're able to hold out for her birthday - what a lovely surprise for her and hardly any waiting time too.
take care and try to be positive if you can, you bled and you were seen, they know your history and will be keeping an eye on you, I'm sure if they'd thought there was a problem you'd still be in hospital now. I know there's no way you wont worry but hope you manage to push past the worry as much as you can...... Look after yourself x
i just replied on ure scan thread, yes was thinkin of u 2 hoping it had stopped!!
well just been to the toilet and theres more!!!
really dont know wot to do , im not bleeding major but there is blood there wen i wipe!!
if i went to the hospital again they cant do anything exept want to look at cervix with a speculum which i wont let them do so i do feel theres no point going!!! im really hoping its just an erosion as i had one of these b4? and i know they are harmless?.but i have done nothing to disturb the cervix if it is one such as sex (whats that!? )lol... maybe i shud just have it done then maybe i would stop worrying?.. but im so worried it will make bleeding worse.... as im sure it did last time?
what would any of u do?
just getting so close to where it all went wrong last time!!
so my mum has got frankie 4 a few hrs and im laid on the sofa scared to move !! scared to go to the toilet!! oh at work will be home by half 2 so will see what he thinks... hes such an optomist.. im such a pessimist!
sorry to ramble on!
Lisaxx
on monday nite wen i was in hosp they said they understood my fears and would in no way push it on me,
wot do u meen bout the c sec? didnt understand that bit.
foning the nhs is no good 4 me as i feel i know it all already lol
it has stopped again now!!
wot a rollercoaster .... hurry up may!! lol...... if i make it that far without being sectioned lol