Struggling emotionally with ttc ;(
Hi guys, no need to reply here but I'm so so down and need to get it off my chest.
Hubby and I are 25, nearly on ttc month 8 with no AF for 5 months. Polycystic ovaries diagnosed, fertility dr says I'm unlikely to ovulate on my own without treatment. I'm starting Clomid in 5 weeks but finding it so hard to stay positive. I'm a primary teacher and surrounded by young children, families and often toddlers and babies daily which I'm finding hard to cope with- 3 children in my class have pregnant mums too.
I desperately want to be a mum, truthfully it's much more important to me than my career. I'm not interested in promotion or travelling or anything else. I'm wondering if it will ever happen. My SIL is trying for her second and fell in month 1 last time no problem so I know she'll be announcing it soon.
Finding it so hard todistract myself and getting really down about it- I've confided in a few friends but obviously it's not the kind of thing you tell any old person. People say the classic things like oh you're still young, just relax, it'll happen when you least expect- but it can't happen if I can't ovulate! I have lots of hospital tests coming up soon and same for hubby which I'm scared of- terrified of what the results are. (
So sorry to bring down the positive vibes on here but maybe someone understands?
Hubby and I are 25, nearly on ttc month 8 with no AF for 5 months. Polycystic ovaries diagnosed, fertility dr says I'm unlikely to ovulate on my own without treatment. I'm starting Clomid in 5 weeks but finding it so hard to stay positive. I'm a primary teacher and surrounded by young children, families and often toddlers and babies daily which I'm finding hard to cope with- 3 children in my class have pregnant mums too.
I desperately want to be a mum, truthfully it's much more important to me than my career. I'm not interested in promotion or travelling or anything else. I'm wondering if it will ever happen. My SIL is trying for her second and fell in month 1 last time no problem so I know she'll be announcing it soon.
Finding it so hard todistract myself and getting really down about it- I've confided in a few friends but obviously it's not the kind of thing you tell any old person. People say the classic things like oh you're still young, just relax, it'll happen when you least expect- but it can't happen if I can't ovulate! I have lots of hospital tests coming up soon and same for hubby which I'm scared of- terrified of what the results are. (
So sorry to bring down the positive vibes on here but maybe someone understands?
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You're not alone, I'm feeling it too!! I've been ttc for 2 years this month and have had a stillbirth and then a mc 2 weeks ago, sometimes it seems as though its never going to happen!! It's crap feeling like this isn't it and you're not the only one with the negative vibes
I hope you feel better soon and that the Clomid does the trick for you. Big Hugs xx
Just want to send you hugs and i hope clomid works for you,
Some days I cope fine and have some pma, then as soon as I see a baby or someone mentions pg or it's on tv or whatever it's back! Ugggh. Distraction isn't helping either- I've tried meeting friends, starting a new hobby, shopping... my cats are getting sick of being picked up and cuddled all the time too, as I need an outlet for broodiness lol!
[Modified by: MrsRobertson on January 12, 2010 07:50 PM]
Totally agree about baby stuff in shops... I don't even let myself look at cute stuff like that cos I'd probably lose it and start wailing like a nutter!
Big hugs to you. I know how you feel, Ive been pretty much feeling the same too. Im 30 next month and hubby is 35 and we have been trying for 8 months. Ive just been to see doc today as Ive been getting spotting a week before AF is due and Im worried that whatever is causing it may be the reason we havent got PG yet. She has referred me for a Ultrasound scan of pelvis. Bit worried about what they may find.
I know how you feel about not being able to distract yourself, ttc is on my mind all the time!!! I dont really care about a career either and just want to get pregnant. Lets hope that we both get our bfp's soon. Lots of pma and big hugs xxxxxx
Luckily it happened about 8 cycles later for us but I'm not sure we would be so lucky if we tried again. I am sure you have heard of all those people who stop trying and then it happens for them? I used to think but how will they stop trying!!
Anyhow I wish you well and hope that you have some positive news soon x x x
Hugs to you xxxxx
I think lots of people feel a bit like this, which kind of helps in a weird way... cos I'm not alone with it. Keep hoping we'll get there in the end, hugs to all ((((()))))) x
Just to make you aware as well from what people of have told me you can only go on clomid for a certain length of time and that's it. So make sure you're ready for it and you look into some kind of charting or tracking or whatever- if that's what feels right. I have a friend who is pretty far into TTC and tried Clomid a while ago. The doctors didn't really give her much info at the time and she now regrets not checking when she was ovulating to give it the best shot. Don't want to sound negative as it seems to be pretty successful but just wanted you to have that extra info because I hadn't realised it myself until I've started to look into it more (hugs) xxx
I am in exactly the same boat and have decided to take matters into my own hands - sick of waiting for body to sort itself out as 4 months since came off pill and no AF still!! I am going for Acupuncture next week as it has had really good reviews for regulating AF's and getting you ovulating again so I will report back on my findings. I had just had enough of sitting and waiting (I am a control freak and need to feel like I am doing something!)
I feel a bit more positive about it all now - Baby dust to us all!!!!
Catherine the accupuncture sounds really intriguing! How much are you paying, and how did you find your therapist?