worried pg - long story
ok ladies,
not posted for a wee while, as i have been tryng to cut back my usage of BE. we dont plan to ttc until 2011. in oct i was diagnosed with foloate issue too which ment defo no trying to ttc for a wee while. i'm on the pill have been for years. any way
in last month or 2 me & hubby havent been great lots of fighting etc, he's in a really stressful job & i think it has finally got the better of him. in dec during one of our fights he came out with have you been taking your pills, i was like of course, he then dropped the bombshell of "i didnt trust you to take them" now i admit the whole folate issue kinda scared me as i want kids badly, however if i wanted a baby like that i would have had one years ago. i was livid. financially we get by but we never have much spare cash, 2 good jobs but a large mortgage sorta thing so that is the reason for waiting.
things between us finally hit a point between xmas & ny, xmas this year was ruined by him basically, not that i have told him that to his face. we had a few major rows between xmas & ny where hubby turned round & said that he just couldnt cope (stress) & that nothing terrified him more that me getting pg.
so i had my break from the pill between xmas & ny - no AF, i have to admit didnt really phase me as every so often that does happen with me, had cramp etc. started back pill on 1st jan, i have been having cramp every day since aching tugging etc but no bleeding, the last few days its been getting worse. hubby was talking about it last nite & i said i was 99.9% sure i wasnt pg hence no test. however thinking about it i know i should do a test but i cant bring myself to. what if its bfp, i dont think my hubby would leave as such but i think he's crack. he hasnt been the same man i married which i know is stress but this would tip him over the edge i think.
sorry ladies you dont need to reply i just needed to get this all out.
have a yucky heavy cold too & cant sleep so decided to come on here & post
not posted for a wee while, as i have been tryng to cut back my usage of BE. we dont plan to ttc until 2011. in oct i was diagnosed with foloate issue too which ment defo no trying to ttc for a wee while. i'm on the pill have been for years. any way
in last month or 2 me & hubby havent been great lots of fighting etc, he's in a really stressful job & i think it has finally got the better of him. in dec during one of our fights he came out with have you been taking your pills, i was like of course, he then dropped the bombshell of "i didnt trust you to take them" now i admit the whole folate issue kinda scared me as i want kids badly, however if i wanted a baby like that i would have had one years ago. i was livid. financially we get by but we never have much spare cash, 2 good jobs but a large mortgage sorta thing so that is the reason for waiting.
things between us finally hit a point between xmas & ny, xmas this year was ruined by him basically, not that i have told him that to his face. we had a few major rows between xmas & ny where hubby turned round & said that he just couldnt cope (stress) & that nothing terrified him more that me getting pg.
so i had my break from the pill between xmas & ny - no AF, i have to admit didnt really phase me as every so often that does happen with me, had cramp etc. started back pill on 1st jan, i have been having cramp every day since aching tugging etc but no bleeding, the last few days its been getting worse. hubby was talking about it last nite & i said i was 99.9% sure i wasnt pg hence no test. however thinking about it i know i should do a test but i cant bring myself to. what if its bfp, i dont think my hubby would leave as such but i think he's crack. he hasnt been the same man i married which i know is stress but this would tip him over the edge i think.
sorry ladies you dont need to reply i just needed to get this all out.
have a yucky heavy cold too & cant sleep so decided to come on here & post
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As babydust said - it could be fate to bring you back together with a baby?
Hope all works out for you, hugs, H x
I know you must be scared to test but until you do you won't know either way.
We are here to support you either way xxxx
I logged on quickly this morn in work & posted but BE must have ate it. I have no phone or net at home thanks to talk talk so on my blackberry
I still haven't done a test, my eaten post said we weren't using other contra because I was on the pill, I was only on my bleed week. Just no AF.
If nothing by weekend, and pain still here will defo test.
I have a genuine reason for not testing hubby is traumatised enough at the mo & I'm frightened that even doing a test & it being neg will make him worse.
If I did 1 in secret & it turned out posative I don't know what I'd say to him. Due my AF in just over a wk so hopefully she'll arrive.
This obv being on my mind, as much as I want a baby it proves that I want to wait till next year as planned. I've been kinda freaking out & haven't told anyone - only u guys
J x
Was gonna test this morn, but didn't my mum then called but ended up breaking down on the phone to her & she ended up coming over.
After long talk I did the test, positive. Have spent most of the day crying with my mum. Hubby won't be home from work for ages.
Don't have a clue how or what to tell him
As u can tell I'm not over the moon, which.a few months ago I would have thought I'd be
J x
Just seen your posts, I'm so sorry you are going through all of this. I'd like to say congratulations on your BFP but i know thats prob not what you need to hear right now. I'm glad your mum is there for you. Please talk to your husband. He needs to know. You've done absolutely nothing wrong just stay calm. He may suprise you. Thinking of you
I remember talking to you on PAB when you first joined hun and remember you were always supportive so I really hope that you both find a way to work through this and you can feel some excitement in getting your BFP.
Good luck hun and keep me posted xx
Hugs for you, I hope you find the strength to tell hubs xxx
Hugs for you, I hope you find the strength to tell hubs xxx
chin up, take care xx
He's just called he's on his way home, had a bad day at work, but sounds in an ok mood. I put a couple of bulmers in freezer for him. Can I disovle sleeping tablets in it lol
Will let u know once he's told
Have escaped to toilet. Wish I could have drink!
Its him I'm worried about. No idea what to do about him