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Please Don't judge Me
Hi I am 30 weeks pregnant, 31 tomrrow. For the last 24 weeks I have battled with trying to stop smoking. I really have tried and I am still determined to quit. Please help me! What I need is support. I quit easily as soon as I found out I was pregnant with my son and started smoking again after he was born. I never smoked around him though.
When I fell pregnant I didn't quit straight away because I so didn't want to miscarry and I was worried that the stress of quitting could cause me to in the first week. I set a quit date for six weeks pregnant and failed. Since then I have tried everyday except for my oh days off. He smokes and it is hard for me not to smoke.
There have been times when I have done quite well and not smoked till evening but only once I have gone over 24hrs. I have cried so much over this. I have posters up in my kitchen about smoking. The guilt I feel means I haven't enjoyed my pregnancy at all yet. How can I when I am going against everything that I believe in. I am not silly. I know all the risks, and have really looked into all the toxins in the smoke and understand what I am doing to my unborn child.
You may wonder why I haven't been able to stop if this is the case. Well at the moment I can not make decisions and see them through. I am depressed at the moment. Have tried telling my doctor she's no help. Hasn't even offered me counselling. I told the smoking cessation midwife. She wasn't much use as she stopped seeing me in the begging of January.
I'm not that badly depressed I can handle it and have taken steps to combat it. I feel so lonely and isolated especially as I moved into the area I live July last year and my friend moved away in the winter. So I have no friends within 20miles and we don't drive. I have a crap family and they live hundreds of miles away. I can go days on end without seeing someone who is actually interested in me other than my husband. That makes it harder to quit cos I seem to smoke out of loneliness. I have recently joined an antenatal group in a desperate bid to make friends. My husband and I argue regularly and he bears grudges for ages and that makes it hard to not smoke. I have been that desperate to stop that I resent his days off from work and have thought about getting him to move out for a week so I can quit.
I would like to make a pledge that after the cigarette I will smoke after posting this not to smoke again. Please support me people and please don't judge me. You can't judge me more than I do myself. Thanks:\(
When I fell pregnant I didn't quit straight away because I so didn't want to miscarry and I was worried that the stress of quitting could cause me to in the first week. I set a quit date for six weeks pregnant and failed. Since then I have tried everyday except for my oh days off. He smokes and it is hard for me not to smoke.
There have been times when I have done quite well and not smoked till evening but only once I have gone over 24hrs. I have cried so much over this. I have posters up in my kitchen about smoking. The guilt I feel means I haven't enjoyed my pregnancy at all yet. How can I when I am going against everything that I believe in. I am not silly. I know all the risks, and have really looked into all the toxins in the smoke and understand what I am doing to my unborn child.
You may wonder why I haven't been able to stop if this is the case. Well at the moment I can not make decisions and see them through. I am depressed at the moment. Have tried telling my doctor she's no help. Hasn't even offered me counselling. I told the smoking cessation midwife. She wasn't much use as she stopped seeing me in the begging of January.
I'm not that badly depressed I can handle it and have taken steps to combat it. I feel so lonely and isolated especially as I moved into the area I live July last year and my friend moved away in the winter. So I have no friends within 20miles and we don't drive. I have a crap family and they live hundreds of miles away. I can go days on end without seeing someone who is actually interested in me other than my husband. That makes it harder to quit cos I seem to smoke out of loneliness. I have recently joined an antenatal group in a desperate bid to make friends. My husband and I argue regularly and he bears grudges for ages and that makes it hard to not smoke. I have been that desperate to stop that I resent his days off from work and have thought about getting him to move out for a week so I can quit.
I would like to make a pledge that after the cigarette I will smoke after posting this not to smoke again. Please support me people and please don't judge me. You can't judge me more than I do myself. Thanks:\(
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I know what it's like not knowing many people, I have only moved to this area about 2 1/2 years ago, and it's not easy making new friends, well proper friends. I have a few now, but it's not like being in the place where I grew up, and my oh doesn't really understand cause he grew up here and has his life long friends. Plus my family is a long way away too, so I understand how easily you can feel isolated. Where do you live? I found this site a lifeline for when I'm feeling lonely, 99.9% of people are friendly, helpful and have helped me through lots of ups and downs.
Think about giving the patches etc a go, and make sure you let me know how you get on, you may not succeed the first time you use the patches, but you will get there. Take care sweetie.xxxx
I tried the gum for a while after that but stopped when after a few weeks I still hadn't quit. I found that I was smoking less though. Then I wanted to quit cold turkey because I hated putting nicotine in my system still. It was keeping me addicted when most of my addiction is mental not physical.
I think we all know that smoking is not good for either you or the baby, however, neither is a Mummy who is sad or depressed or guilt ridden or putting herself under enormous pressure all the time!
Not that I want to make you feel bad of course but from this post you can see you are not alone. It's easy to think about what you 'should' be doing whilst pregnant but it just isn't that easy. I am an ex-smoker myself and tried to quit many times. The only time I managed it is when I didn't consider myself quitting, I just decided that 'I didn't want one right now'. It left the door open for me to have one if I fancied it but I am just coming up to a years anniversary and I just never even think about it now.
Has your OH thought of quitting - can you ask him to smoke outside? Will any of this help?!?
We won't judge you but we will support you when you need us!!
Take it easy
Tracey
xxx
It's now 1pm and have failed already.ops: I now choose not to smoke until tomorrow 1pm. Serves me right for leaving cigarettes where I can get them back. Have destroyed them now though. x I hope I do this and stay strong when oh gets in at six
[Modified by: Samantha24 on April 15, 2007 01:09 PM]
Been out today but thinking about you wondering how things have been today! Hope you have managed to stay strong.
Tracey
xxx
and i should avoid second hand smoke.. i work in a pub am i meant to hold my breath for the hole of my shift or something?
apparently my baby is going to not stop crying because he will be addicted to nicotine.
oh and the best part.. get this. i've also been told that i should start cuttin myself again instead of smoking because that wont damage the baby.
That's terrible that someone said those things to you!!!
I am shocked! Was it someone you know or a stranger?
I haven't been able to quite kick the habit and still have one or two a day which is better than the 20 I was on when I first got pregnant I suppose.
I hope you are ok, try not to take what people say to heart (easier said than done, I know.)
Sam x
hi samantha have you cut down? you shouldn't feel so guilty. as long as you are trying. you cant do any more than try!
the guy the called me a child abuser.. kindly called his mum a terrorist for having him. and said.. "you are the cum your mum should have swallowed" i know its pretty disgustin but it made me feel better!
People will always have opinions on what you do while you're pregnant and you just can't win! So apart from becoming a total hermit then you really have to develop a thick skin!! xxxx