In 2 weeks' time....

.....we can start IVF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ) ) ) )

I am so so over the moon. It's been a pretty emotional day. As some of you will know I am really desperate to have one go of IVF this yr. Just something about the fact that we started trying in 2008, so getting a chance at IVF in 2009 sounds so much better in my head than 2010, despite the fact that it's actually only a matter on weeks really. Anyway, i knew it would be tight or maybe not possible.....but had really pinned my hopes on starting this yr.

So, we had our intital consultation today. Our consultant looked through all our results and history and basically said that the chances of us conceiving naturally with my husband's poor sperm results were very slim (i.e., if we kept trying for the next however many yrs we may be very lucky and get pg once or maybe not at all. She therefore recommended ICSI. If my ovarian reserves are good, then the success rate could be as high as 60% at our clinic, but it all depends how many eggs are collected.

So then she looked at dates and we worked out if i start on the long protocol on my next AF the EC and ET would be v v close to xmas and may end up being when they are closed if things do not go according to plan. Which would be a bit risky to say the least. She said I would not be able to start the short protocol as I have not yet had my AMH levels tested (GP didn;t do them properly it seems ) This sent me into a spiral of negativity, crying, and saying I just cannot bear to wait until next yr. I know it'[s a bit dramatic but I think it's just that I'd pinned all my hopes on this and set my heart on it. I also know that it has a good chance of not working first time, but I just want a chance. Just for once, just a chance! I think she then realised where my brain is at with this, and agreed that I could have my AMH tested today ( which they did) and then I could start the short protocol when my next AF arrives, probably in about 2 weeks' time. So i've got my prescription for the drugs I will probably have to take and just have to wait for AF, which despite all the bd'ing we've done this month, probably will arrive (but still trying to remain optimistic for a miracle!).

I know this is only the first step and there's lots that could go wrong before we get to the stage of actually having any embryo(s) transferred, but for now I am just going to enjoy this feeling of excitment and anticipation that we may actually have a real chance in 2009.

Thanks to all of you fantastic ladies who have posted well wishes today. I really cannot tell you how much your support means to me. I shall be keeping you updated and probably asking lots of random questions over the next couple of months!! xxx