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Does anyone still feel troubled by birth experience?
I had my son on 3rd Dec 2010 & I still feel quite upset about the whole experience when i think about it. I feel a bit stupid cause he is here & he is fine now but I feel quite let down & think that things couldve been alot different with just a little more care & attention and maybe I wouldnt process things so much if that had been the case, I feel a bit guilty too especially when I have my beautiful boy here with me I shouldnt really be worried at all!.
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Im just a bit baffled by alot of things that went un-noticed leading to problems afterwards & my son not breathing at birth!
I feel like my care was neglected & had someone listened or acted earlier alot of things couldve been avoided!
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I do want a third baby, but the whole labour thing terrifies me! I just try and say to myself that no two labours/babies are the same! xx
I had to be induced on my 12th day overdue and although the process was ok I was left so upset by the aftercare I got that I am dreading going to hospital again.
It doesnt feel right to complain as I have a beautiful 20 month old little boy, but I have always felt the way the midwives and nurses treated me during my stay in hospital after having him robbed me in some way of that wonderful moment of holding him for the first time. It left me so stressed that it took me months to stop crying whenever I think about it.
You are not alone.
Like I said it wasn't actually traumatic, not in terms of some of the things I have read on here but I obsess about it all the time and I cant stop reading about back to back births.
I am 16 weeks pregnant with my 2nd and worry all the things that went wrong like my cervix not dilating and the baby being back to back will happen again, I'm not sure any part of me can cope with that again!!!
On the flip side I was only in labour for 15 hours in total from my waters breaking and the first twinge to him being born and am concerned that if this baby is in the right position I could give birth in marks and Spencer, at least I would get some vouchers or something!!
I think the reality is that the professional support isn't there as it should be, I should've been offered counselling, or sought it. We are told that pregnancy and birth is so beautiful and natural but actually, it's hell for some of us... but most of us have to simply be glad that we made it, we have our lovely babies and in other parts of the world or years ago that would not have been the case, and hopefully over a period of time and a million cuddles from our treasures time will heal the trouble we feel.
Me too.
I think its a process which you work through after a traumatic birth and it takes each of us differing amounts of time and support to get to the end but we will get there.
For a long time I was devastated, exhausted, traumatised and then angry. Now I feel very jealous of those whose births were 'easier' and especially as some friends seem to treat me as if it were my fault and want to rub in how amazing their experiences were.
But then in some ways I know most births are not plain sailing and often people forget or tell themselves it was fine.
Just take your time and seek the support you need at whatever stage.
The difficulty I have is that with a 2nd pg I am at 80% risk of getting OC again which means added worry of stillbirth, weekly bloods, close monitoring and so much more intervention in general going to daily scans at the end and a c section at 37 weeks or sooner if my levels rise too quickly so next time there is this whole worry from the start and potential prem baby.
If I dont get ill I will have the choice of elec c section but not sure what I'd do. We had such a traumatic induction ending in emcs so just a lot to think about.
my son is 19months and i still often recall what happened and it upsets me, i keep telling myself that hes safe now and a little boy , but its not that simple, when something is traumatic its bound to stay with you. dont be hard on your self your entitled to feel like you do
it is really important to seek help if your feeling like this, all hospitals should offer a afterthoughts service where a head midwife will go through your notes with you and offer help if needed, my two births i feel still trouble me but were only emergency sections and nothing compared to what some of you ladies have experienced