Fear of the future without children
Hi everyone. Haven't been on here in a while but I need some support now. It's coming up to 3 years next week of TTC. I start my 3rd cycle of clomid next month and then I am seeing my consultant to be referred for IVF. Everytime a huge milestone comes up I start to reflect on my life and and the future. This time I am thinking about what will my life be like if I can't have children. I think that I was meant to be a mother so if I can't have children what will the purpose of my life be? I won't ever be happy, or at least I can't see myself being happy which makes my husband really sad because he thinks he isn't enough.
Does anyone feel the same way?
Also, my next Clomid cycle is 100mg and I am so scared. On 50mg I went into such a dark place for 5 days I can't imagine how bad I am going to feel on double the dosage. I've never had problems with ovulating but Clomid did the reverse for me. It also gave me such bad water retention!