First time on chat 2yrs ttc fed up

Hi everyone this I'm a newbie here,I've been ttc 2 years hubby 46 me 24, been together 7 years hubby had vas reversal 2 yrs ago oct 12 tubes blocked unblocked with hcg ovulate every month 28 days to the days! Hubby sperm count low, do not qualify for nhs ivf starting clomid next month! I can NEVER see a light at end of tunnel to the point where just want to adopt and forget the whole things as its killing me on a daily