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Poems about Infertility

I just came across these, and they are lovely..... what do you think? I think we can each relate to at least one of them!

The Birthing Dance

Come to me, My Child
Secret longing of my inner heart
Breath of spirit
Wandering the cosmos
Choosing your next lifepath
Seeking sanctuary in my womb
Visions of you stir my dreams
Your gentle essence drifting inward
Merging into matter
Coming into consciousness
Birthing into being
Your tender wisdom speaks
The ancient knowledge of a mother's power
Our bodies grow together
Two as one
Turning round, in birthing dance
You lead me
Opening the circle corridor
Descending into unhindered ecstasy
Into my arms

author of fertility poetry
Judie C. Rall

Waiting for the Moon

My friend called today
tears in her voice
Her period started
and her dreams for a new baby are postponed
yet another month.

I hold my infant to my breast
eager mouth tugging and pulling
little hands patting and stroking.
My eyes well up with tears.

How many days turned to months turned to years
did I kneel and weep
pressing my hands to my empty womb
rocking on my heels

Pleading with cruel fate
"send me a living child?"
My womb wept bright blood tears
as I felt my youth slip away

Moon after moon
cycle after cycle
month after month
year after long year

My grief was indescribable
unendurable
mourning a child not yet conceived
only wished for, dreamed of, prayed for.

And then later,mourning the children conceived
but lost in pain and blood and tears.
Moon months, cycle songs, lovemaking, babylonging.

These are the things that defined my young womanhood.
eight years of eternal emptiness
years defined by the Moon

By blood
By hope and by tears

I have not missed those cycles
the moon rising within
the blood that defined my loss and failure.
My life has now become an hourly measure

And rather than by a lunar month
I am defined by nursing
by a small demanding mouth
by the fullness of my breast
by rich sweet milk that drips from me
and flows life and love to my child.

I will not (cannot) forget, though,
the years my womb wept blood tears,
the months the shards
of grief began as my period started...

Lactating now, my body moves to another vision
another Time.

The moon tides no longer control me
I am bound to the Earth, to the small body
of another, to a warm mouth in the night that nuzzles
and seeks and heals my tattered soul
and pieces my heart together.

Pergonal and modern medicine gave me a child,
but the child at my breast
Healed my infertility.

author of this fertility poetry Kathryn Miller Ridiman
For Tabitha

My IVF Twins

Month after month I tried for a child
The hormonal ride was anything but mild
Appointment after appointment
Was met with nothing but disappointment.

Finally we decided to try IVF
For us there was no other step
We gave it all the money we had
And prayed that the ending wouldn't be sad

My injections left a great big bruise
But after waiting and waiting I got good news
In 9 short months I'd be a mom
My lifelong dream had finally come

I had a sono to check the baby
And couldn't have been more elated
We saw a baby with a strong heartbeat
And told our happy news to all we'd meet

We had a scare and thought the baby was gone
But had a scan and saw a heartbeat strong
We tried to relax but were scared to death
That we would never feel our baby's breath

Two days later we saw my doc
He gave us the news and we were in shock
Not only was our baby okay
But we had twins that were on their way

My pregnancy went by really quick
I was lucky and only once got sick
My birth experience was something to savoir
Even though at 32 weeks I had premature labor

Infertility has left me scarred
And IVF was really hard
But now I am the mom of twins
And my face is wearing a constant grin

Author of fertility poetry
Rebecca Liebman

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God answers so many of my little prayers,
so why not the big ones too?
I just can't understand it
Why does He do the things he decides to do?
My deepest desire lies unfullfilled
I feel so hopeless inside
I know I should be thankful
and not so full of pride.
I ask God every day
for this or that, you know, little things.
And when He answers so clearly
my heart just really sings.
But in those deep, pondering moments
When I ask for the desire of my heart,
I get no clear answer
and then my tears start,
Oh God, I want a baby
to hold and kiss and love
I know that You alone can give me
that blessing from above.
I keep waiting, waiting, waiting
and my patience grows to despair.
Oh why can't I have a baby?
For nothing else I truely care.
I know You haven't forgotten me
for better things to do
because You answer all my little prayers,
I just wish You'd fulfill my big one, too.

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When do I stop?
When do I realize it's enough?
Why does it have to be me
who has it so tough?
There are many out there
who are evil and perverse.
Yet do You burden them
with an infertility curse?
A 16 year old delivers
a healthy baby boy
then throws him in the garbage
like some old broken toy.
A drug addict
has 3 beautiful little ones
and beats them black and blue
for nothing they have done.
A worn-out woman
with already more than she can bear
sighs dissapointedly
when she sees two lines are there.
God give me one, just one
to cherish all my days
And I promise that to You I'll give
all glory, credit and praise.
Make it stop
this intense longing and fear.
Please give me a child
that I can hold near!

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With every tear that falls, there is a lost heart that calls.
it calls to say I'm here, don't dispair, I will come to you
when the time is right, when you least expect me and through
the quiet night open your heart to me, accept me, I will be there
in the end.
Your wait may be long, you may get frustrated by the whole
ordeal. In the end I will be real. While others around you are
succeeding your heart goes on bleeding.
I would thank you for being patient, I would thank you for
being the kind of person who shows persistance. If it were not
for this, I may never get the chance to have an existence.
In the chaos of your day, the calm of your night, let your heart
soar and take flight.
For so many tears, for so many years. You have been trying,
thinking of giving up but never doing it. In the end you just keep
on going in the hopes that I will come to you, the one who deserves
me, the one who can love me as no other can. You will be that
mother that you always wanted to be. Just you keep waiting for me.

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Some dream of big houses
Or shiny new cars,
Ours is to someday
Hold a baby that's ours.
Some dream of more money
To hoard and to keep,
Mine is to someday
Rock my baby to sleep.
Some dream of careers
In buildings so tall,
His is to someday
Kick his kid a football.
Some dream of great power
To be strong and tough,
Ours is to someday
Have a child to love.
Some dream of things
Such as silver and gold
Ours is of the day
Our child we'll hold.

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I sit here and wonder
Is it ever to be?
Will I get to display
The mother in me?
Wonder in time
How the story will end,
Will they just be for others-
The showers I attend.
When's it my turn
I ask God each day,
The only answer I get
Is, ???????Not today???????.
I ask only to know
What my future might be,
To plan and prepare
God, please tell me.
I just need to know
How long to be strong,
For sometimes I question
my strength to go on.
I sit here and wonder
Is it ever to be?
Will I get to display
The mother in me?

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Some days I've learned to dread
More than all the rest,
Difficult to get through
I try my very best.
The day I hate most of all
Always comes in May,
It happens each and every year
We call it Mother's Day.
In church they're given flowers
At home a handmade card,
Dad making everyone some lunch
Kids playing in the yard.
Reminds me what I do not have
Instead of what I do,
A little one to give a hug
And say, ???????Mum, I love you???????.
Tomorrow I will live again
Just let me mourn this day,
I pray that I can make it
Through another Mother's Day.

Life's Greatest Lesson

I would gladly trade places
With the women I see.
The joy on their faces,
Why can't that be me?

They complain of stretch marks,
And sometimes of heartburn,
Their feet may get swollen.
Then stomachs in turn.

I would gladly trade places
With the women I see.
But instead battle daily
With Infertiltiy.

My months filled with charting
And days filled with meds.
I lie on white sheets
Of hospital beds.

But if I traded places
With the women I saw,
I'd miss life's greatest lesson
Trusting God with my all.

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Don't let them get too close -
Too close to see my pain.
Because if they look real close,
They will see the tears that fall like rain.
The room is picked,
And baby's things collected.
But, inside that empty room,
Something needs corrected.
Because there's a crib and a cradle -
There are baby toys and clothes too.
But, there is not a baby -
No baby to fill this womb.
I cannot stop the crying,
And my pain won't subside.
I'm lost for ways of trying;
I've run out of places to hide.
The holidays they come and go -
All the years that I look back.
And now I find the future's grim
When I look at what I lack.
I try to hang onto hope -
I try to wait and see.
But sometimes it's hard to cope
When I think it may never be.
I'm not the only one that finds it hard -
Sometimes I wish I were.
But, it's the hurt I see in his eyes
That digs in like a spur.
So tell me where to go from here -
Please tell me where to go.
Things just seem so unclear,
And it has challenged all I know.
It has tested and confused me.
It has brought me to my knees.
And now it's too hard to see
Just what you need from me.
Is it something I am doing wrong?
Is there something I can do?
You see, I've been waiting for so long,
And I've been crying out to you.
Please don't let this be a barren place-
In this place where my child should be.
Let me see your loving grace.
Please bring my child to me.
Rock-a-bye baby...
I hold you so dear.
Even if it's only in my heart
That I'm holding you near.

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If god had truly blessed me, then in my arms tonight
I would rock you gently baby, and hold you oh so tight
If god had truly blessed me he'd send from up above
An angel I could hold so tight, and fill your life with love
If life was oh so easy, and everything went right
I'd love you with all I have, and protect you with my all might
But life is not so easy, at times its oh so hard
I sit upon my bed at night, i've cried baby i've cried





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  • awww, these are so sweet and i can definately relate.x
  • very very poignant
  • I Wish It Didn’t Bother Me

    I wish it didn’t bother me
    But in the depths of my heart
    and soul it does.

    I long to be a mother
    And to hold my child close
    To pick out names
    Toys and clothes

    I want to show a baby
    love so true and dear
    To hug and kiss and cuddle with

    I wish it didn’t bother me
    To see all my friends and family
    Being a Mommy or expecting

    Going to showers
    Seeing Maternity Photos
    It is heart breaking to know
    That I will never experience it

    Yea I can adopt
    But it’s really not the same.
    I wish it didn’t bother me

    I want to feel the kicks
    I want know what it is like
    People say I am lucky
    But I disagree

    The heartbreak one feels
    Being unable to bear children
    It is indescribable

    I wish it didn’t bother me
    But it does

    To try and tell the guy you love
    That you are unable to give him
    Children of his own

    What if he can’t handle it
    He can’t accept that you’re damaged goods
    What if he leaves you for a new girl
    One that can give him kids

    It is a cruel fate
    That I wouldn’t wish
    Even on my worst of enemies

    Sometimes I just need to cry
    I need someone to confide in
    But despite their greatest efforts
    They just don’t understand

    I wish it didn’t bother me
    But unfortunately it does



    ~ Nicole Richardson
       6/24/2012

  • Hope you dont mind, thought Id have a go myself, to be honest sometimes writing about it sometimes helps x

     

    6 months of trying, 6 months of tears

    hearing the ticking, time increasing your fears

    12 months roll by you beg for some help

    angry and sad at the hand you were dealt

     

    Everywhere you look, bumps seem to be

    you find your self screaming inside, should be me!

    All you see are those people, the ones who just fall

    the ones who dont seem to try much at all.

     

    Too many doctors, needles and tubes

    try it this way, use this, dont use lube.

    another 12 months we wed go away

    keep hoping it will happen for us someday

     

    Two years gone by , unexplained they have said

    relax and forget, get out of your head

    In time it will happen wait one more year

    I nod and try to hold back that tear

     

    People keep asking when will it be?

    Dont you want beautiful kids like me?

    Weren't you just married? Don't your age matter?

    I tell myself, its just mindless natter.

     

    "Dont leave it too long, you'll run out of time,

    kids are hassle, you can have mine"

    so next time before you comment or talk

    take your foot from your mouth, turn around, take a walk!

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    hope you like it x

     

    Leanne

     

     

     

  • That's really good Leanne! I get fed up of proe having an opinion too! Good luck to you xxx
  • thank you, I had a very young girl (21) tell me she couldnt believe I hadnt just got pregnant after getting married, that she wouldnt want to wait, when her partner and her get married next year thats it! I wanted to hit her and Im not usually violent image

  • hi all im needing abit help i have been told i cant concieve naturally im hoping u guys can help me...both me and my partner are wanting a short poem for a tattoo realating to this can any1 help image thanks so much

  • hi Kelly sorry only just saw your post did you find something you liked in the end?



    leanne
  • Leanne reading your poem was like reading what my life has been like for the past three years - So spot on!!! Here's hoping 2013 is our year image
  • from what I've read on here a lot more people are in our boats, I'm literally surrounded by baby making machines most of which fell pg accidentally (how do you do that?) I dint get it. I didn't worry for about 7 months and then when I started to worry people were like "chill it will happen" I didn't worry I do now and I don't have a "worrying off" button image oh well onwards and upwards





    good luck 2013 is our year I hope x
  • Gosh those poems are wonderful and I admit they bough a tear to my eye. I'm going to copy them and print them off as I'm sure my sister in laws brother and his wife will appreciate it - they are considering IVF too. 

    Thank you for posting them!

  • Leanne, unfortunately for that girl (21) even though she plans not to wait, God might make her wait. There are things we can't control and we have to trust that He knows best. I loved your poem. 

  • I have battled through this journey of infertility for 12 years.  At first with "unexplained" infertility and then later discovering that both my tubes are now blocked and without the help of IVF (already had our 2 NHS cycles....and can't afford private) will never become a mum.

    Today, I wrote this poem and intend to have a goodbye ceremony to the children I will never have.  I hope that this helps some of you too:

    Good Night Sweet Angel

    Although I never saw your face,

    And you never felt my warm embrace,

    My desire for you is so strong and so real,

    How can it be?  This love that I feel,

    For someone who will never be,

    Yet the love I feel is real to me.

     

    We tried so hard to make you appear,

    We battled sadness, sorrow and fear.

    For twelve long years you’ve been my dream,

    But it’s time to let you go it would seem.

     

    So here is a promise that I make to you,

    The love that I feel, so strong and so true,

    I’ll share it with others, be loving and giving

    You may not have existed, but your memory is living.

     

    Each kind word, each smile, each good deed I do,

    Know that they’re from the love that’s for you.

    I’ll carry you with me, but only in joy,

    No more tears for my girl or my boy.

     

    And now I must thank you for making me stronger,

    The journey’s been tough but my heart aches no longer.

    Now that we’ve realised that you weren’t meant to be,

    Let us be kind and set ourselves free.

    I know that I did all I could do

    Good night my sweet angel, I’ll always love you

    xxx

  • p.s I just wanted to wish you all luck on your journey's.  Just because it wasn't meant for me, does not mean that it's not meant for you.  Be strong, remember it's ok to cry if you need to and I send all of you positive thoughts to get you to where you need to be x

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