PMA done a runner.........
...........arrrggghhhh I am so sad, and going insane. I am 6 days past 5 day embryo transfer, so basically like 11dpo.
Last week I had some pg like symptoms, sore boobs, horrible metallic taste....but I now realise that was probably all down to the trigger (HCG) shot).
This week, all I have is AF symptoms. I have had light cramping and twinges since embryo transfer (very much like AF cramps but duller and I don't usually get them until day of AF). Also in past few days have been v bloated on and off, bit nauseous, had white CM, and greasy skin. I get ALL of these before AF. I am now convinced it hasn't worked, and just cannot get my PMA back. The only saving grace is that my dear sweet husband is being amazing and I don't hate him like I usually do pre-AF!!! (poor man). And I haven't cried in weeks!
I'm just so sad, I had been so so positive. We had even talked about names. Now it feels like it's over before it's begun..... I just cannot believe it. We had 2 perfect quality blastocysts transferred which gave us a 74% chance of conceiving.
Can ANYONE give me any PMA or reassure me about these symtpoms? At the moment, am just preparing for the devastation at the weekend.
Thank you ladies and very very sorry for the very negative post xxx
Last week I had some pg like symptoms, sore boobs, horrible metallic taste....but I now realise that was probably all down to the trigger (HCG) shot).
This week, all I have is AF symptoms. I have had light cramping and twinges since embryo transfer (very much like AF cramps but duller and I don't usually get them until day of AF). Also in past few days have been v bloated on and off, bit nauseous, had white CM, and greasy skin. I get ALL of these before AF. I am now convinced it hasn't worked, and just cannot get my PMA back. The only saving grace is that my dear sweet husband is being amazing and I don't hate him like I usually do pre-AF!!! (poor man). And I haven't cried in weeks!
I'm just so sad, I had been so so positive. We had even talked about names. Now it feels like it's over before it's begun..... I just cannot believe it. We had 2 perfect quality blastocysts transferred which gave us a 74% chance of conceiving.
Can ANYONE give me any PMA or reassure me about these symtpoms? At the moment, am just preparing for the devastation at the weekend.
Thank you ladies and very very sorry for the very negative post xxx
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There's only a few more days to go until you can tesy. I can only imagine how hard it is to stay positive all the time so accept that your post was your moment of weakness; we're all allowed them, and now you're going to have PMA, PMA, PMA!!! Have mine - I don't need it at the moment!! And as you've said before, you are PUPO!!!!
Honestly though, TBD, try not to worry about the 'symptoms' too much. Every woman is different and going through IVF I am sure will alter the initial 'symptoms' anyway because of all the drugs.
Thinking of you hun. Keep your chin up. Massive cyber hugs coming your way.
xxxx
I am sending you loads and loads of PMA down the internet for you... so keep visualising ... remember you are PUPO.... and no one has proven that you are not.
Lots of love sweetie, xxx
MrsH, bless you, thank you so much and you're right it is just a moment of weakness....really really appreciate your PMA!!
MrsA, thank you so much to you too. It's good to know you didn;t have any symptoms. I think I'd feel better about it if I had nothing though. It's the AF syptoms that are so upsetting. I am taking the prog pessary yes. To be honest my mood is actually ok. I haven't had any mood swings and don;t really feel down. I guess I have just lost my positive feelings.....I feel sad about that because it was so amazing to have the dream feel like it could be a reality. You're right though...I am trying not to focus on negatuve thoughts because of the effect it could have....
Rachie, it is saying you have replied but I can't see it! Hopefully will pop up after my post!
Thanks again ladies xxx
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you a massive cyber hug and a load of positive vibes!!!! I truely hope those embies have bedded in down there for your much deserved BFP you soooh deserve it!!! chin up chick(easier said than done I know) xxxxxxxx
KC, thanks hon. I remember you saying that! But it just doesn;t feel possible that I could be pg AND have these cramps. How strong were your cramps? Mine aren't too bad....just uncomfortable and they come and go, but are better if I eat something. I haven't got sore boobs which I feel I would have if it had worked.
Oh girls, I know I probably cannot really tell either way at this stage, what with the hcg trigger, prog pessaries, possible AF and possible pg.........but this is just excruciating!!! Ok, once I've finished having a good moan on here I promise to get my PMA back! xxx
Got everything crossed for you!!! xxxxx
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Try to keep yourself busy in something involving - take up knitting?? Baking? clear out a drawer? I don't know, just keep busy to keep your mind off your symptoms.
I do know it's easier said than done, I'm really feeling side effects of clomid this month (really cramping) and am losing my PMA, but honey, you have to keep yours because it's not over for you!
A friend who's recently given birth said she had cramps before her BFP (and she'd had a MC a couple of months before) and thought there was no way she'd get the good news she did, but she did, and she now has a beautiful baby girl.
I have everything crossed for you too, Take Care
xx