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My dream is over
Thanks for all the good luck messages. Sadly, this morning I learnt two harsh lessons.
First, not only does Cyclogest cause different symptoms in different people - it also causes different symptoms in the same person, even when the IVF protocol has been exactly the same and nothing about the drugs or the dosage has been changed.
Second, you can pray as hard as you like, but sometimes your prayers aren't answered. All I asked for was not to be given false hope, but when the spotting stopped and didn't start up again, that's exactly what I got, and now I've come down to earth with a bump.
So now I'm off to play happy families at my niece's playgroup nativity play, and I swear if I see anybody complaining about their children, I won't be responsible for my actions.
First, not only does Cyclogest cause different symptoms in different people - it also causes different symptoms in the same person, even when the IVF protocol has been exactly the same and nothing about the drugs or the dosage has been changed.
Second, you can pray as hard as you like, but sometimes your prayers aren't answered. All I asked for was not to be given false hope, but when the spotting stopped and didn't start up again, that's exactly what I got, and now I've come down to earth with a bump.
So now I'm off to play happy families at my niece's playgroup nativity play, and I swear if I see anybody complaining about their children, I won't be responsible for my actions.
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I don't know what else to say-I wanted this so much for you, possibly even more than myself as I already have Grace and know how lucky I am.
Sending you the biggest hug.
Helen.xxx
speak to you soon xx
Mrs E xx
Sorry hun.
xxx
I think you are incredibly brave spending the day with your family, and resisting the urge to curl up in a ball. Take good care of yourself.
Thinking of you.
I think I'm going to take a break from here while we decide what we're going to do - I don't think there's any point in trying again with our own eggs and sperm, as we have been given such low chances of success and I just can't take another failure, but DH is very resistant to the idea of bringing up children that aren't genetically part of both of us, so it looks as though I may have to come to terms with a child-free life. I can't tell you how gutted that makes me feel, and I'm hoping he'll change his mind when he has a bit of time to think about it over Christmas - he has at least agreed to consider it. In the meantime, I need to retreat into my little cave to grieve for the dream that we've lost.
Take care, and I hope all of you have a very happy Christmas and that your dreams come true in 2010 xx
Hope you're ok
xxxx
Just wanted to say I'm so sorry you haven't had success.....
Just a suggestion with considering your options is it worth a consultation with George at Nottingham care fertility? He's had amazing successes with couples having numerous unsuccessful cycles using CGArray.
My friend went to that clinic (but was seen by a woman) and is now expecting twins after 6 failed cycles at 2 seperate clinics (NHS and private)
All the best,
Alison xxxx