Keeping everything crossed (also in IVF)
Well, we're well on the way with ICSI #2 after our first cycle failed in October.
I had egg collection yesterday and was thrilled to get 4 eggs, after being told at my last scan to expect only 2.
Unfortunately, when I got the fertilisation report today it turned out that only 2 of my eggs were mature, and only 1 of them has actually fertilised successfully. Embryo transfer is scheduled for tomorrow afternoon - assuming my one little embryo survives that long. I'm so worried about it - I know the odds for its survival are no worse than they would have been if I had more than one, but I'm very conscious that I basically have all my eggs in one basket.
If we don't make it to transfer tomorrow, I think this will probably be it for our eggs and sperm - I can't justify spending this much money again and again for such a low chance of success. Plus I don't think I can take the emotional turmoil much more.
So for tonight, we're keeping everything crossed and hoping for good news in the morning - and repeating the IVF drug mantra:
Gonal-F and Cetrotide
Come on, little cells, divide!
Ovitrelle and Cyclogest
Come on, baby, do your best!
Any good luck vibes you can send our way would be very much appreciated...
I had egg collection yesterday and was thrilled to get 4 eggs, after being told at my last scan to expect only 2.
Unfortunately, when I got the fertilisation report today it turned out that only 2 of my eggs were mature, and only 1 of them has actually fertilised successfully. Embryo transfer is scheduled for tomorrow afternoon - assuming my one little embryo survives that long. I'm so worried about it - I know the odds for its survival are no worse than they would have been if I had more than one, but I'm very conscious that I basically have all my eggs in one basket.
If we don't make it to transfer tomorrow, I think this will probably be it for our eggs and sperm - I can't justify spending this much money again and again for such a low chance of success. Plus I don't think I can take the emotional turmoil much more.
So for tonight, we're keeping everything crossed and hoping for good news in the morning - and repeating the IVF drug mantra:
Gonal-F and Cetrotide
Come on, little cells, divide!
Ovitrelle and Cyclogest
Come on, baby, do your best!
Any good luck vibes you can send our way would be very much appreciated...
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I have *everything* crossed for you my dear. It only takes one.... And I hope and pray your little embie is a fighter. Your job now is to get yourself all relaxed and ready to make a comfy snuggly home for him/her for the next 9 months.
All the best. Sending you all the positive vibes I have.
xx
Sending big positive vibes your way!!! xxxx
A friend of mine has a little girl from her 2nd attempt at Chiltern!!! Hope the same happens for you!!
Good luck - divide embie divide!!!
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Hope all goes well!! xx
Good luck honey!
H.xxx
Good luck and will be thinking of you, xxx
Will be thinking of you today xxx
I really hope the little embie grows nice and strong and that it all goes well for you.
xxx
Our embryo survived the night, so transfer went ahead as planned this afternoon. Physically, apart from being very uncomfortable (I think it's worse because of my tilted cervix - either that or I'm a total wimp with a very low pain threshold), it went fine.
Emotionally, I'm a wreck - it hit me while I was lying there that I really don't want to have to go through this again, and I was just overcome with sadness at what we're having to go through to give ourselves only the slimmest chance of coming out with a baby at the end of it - and I then just couldn't stop crying, all the time I was lying there waiting for the nurse to tidy up before I got up and got dressed, while she was talking me through everything I have to do for the next two weeks, all the way through the drive home, and now I just feel totally drained.
Last time we went through this, I was so excited to be PUPO when the embryo transfer was finished. This time - not so much. I just can't bear the thought of yet another disappointment, and I think we've reached the end of the road with our eggs and sperm. If this doesn't work, it's going to be embryo donation or adoption - and the realisation that embryo donation would mean I'd still have to go through the horrible experience of transfer again just finished me off.
Sorry to put such a downer on things - I'm sure I'll be fine after I've had a bit more time to process things. xx
At least your embie survived. I have absolutely everything crossed that it beds in well.
Take care of yourself.
H.xxx
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