fed up, anyone care to join me? congrats orange pants!

angelheart · Jul 31, 2010 5:26AM

Firstly big congrats to orange pants on being 10 weeks pregnant. Its great to see such fab news!
we decided to put our house on the market and the couple who were coming to look today have pulled out. I must have pmt cos it made steam come out my ears then cry!! Due on next wed/thurs and period pains started today. It was our first month using cbfm. On to month 23 of trying...never thought i would be typing that. Had my 21 day bloods done tue and doc is waiting for results then referring us to fertility clinic. I got 2 high days then 2 peak and 1 high on cbfm so i know i am ovulating.
sorry for being so negative, just feeling so down today

come on ladies, get some more bfps on here to give us some hope!!

x x

Magpie · Jul 30, 2010 11:53AM

I'll join you, I am very fed up as it is CD1 today! Very bad AF pains just to remind me! On the plus side I have PCOS and this was my shortest cycle by far, only 33 days. I hope your AF doesn't come, you certainly deserve your BFP after 22 months.

I am sure we will both find our PMA again soon!

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angelheart · Jul 30, 2010 12:27PM

hi magpie,
sorry to hear the witch found you. how long have you been trying?
i find its a rollercoaster of emotions through the month, going from really positive in the middle of the month to despair in the week leading up to period. how do you cope with it all?

x x

Socksxx · Jul 30, 2010 1:19PM

G/c honey but as a former member of this forum I understand your pain. I just wanted to say, I too was ov-ing. I fell on month 24 afterbeing convinced I was moving on to month 25 because I too had af cramps. The journey is heartbreaking but dont give up hope, when it does happen your baby will be the luckiest baby in the world because it will be wanted so much. The best things in life have to be worked for and the most appreciated things in life are worth waiting for xx good luck honey hope you are out of here soon xx

Magpie · Jul 30, 2010 2:38PM

I haven't been trying anywhere near as long as you angelheart, only coming up to 11 months and I know how fed up I am already so I can't imagine your frustration and pain. Although I was having cycles of over 80 days before I started on metformin and even now my cycles seem to be shortening I have a constant fear that the PCOS means my ovaries will never produce a good enough egg for me to catch.

I know exactly what you mean about the rollercoaster of emotions, I was so positive a couple of weeks ago and now I am back to feeling like it will never happen and I just want to give up! Of course I won't though! I have to say I haven't been coping that well with it all, feel very bitter and jealous and find it hard not to obsess over it all. It is really great that you are ovulating though, have you or your OH had any other tests done, or are you at the beginning of that process? I really hope that it is just a matter of time for you, because surely then it would have to be your time soon.

Socks that is such a lovely reply, I am a weepy wreck today anyway but it did bring a tear to my eye!

angelheart · Jul 30, 2010 4:40PM

thanks for your lovely reply socks,like magpie it bought a tear to my eye( pmt i think!)
I fell pregnant last june but it was ectopic and nothing since,so all in all onto month 23. I know people are trying to help when they say "at least you can conceive" but i still have no baby after nearly 2 years. Have been to docs who have done 21 day bloods and nect cycle my 2 day bloods. Hubby has been checked and is fine.
I have a 10 yr old son from my first marriage and 11 years ago took clomid to get pregnant but lost my baby son at 22 weeks.
I am so glad i can talk to you lovely ladies in here, it really helps get through another month.
Magpie, 11 months of trying is not to be sniffed at. It is a long time, and each month just gets harder to stay positive.
Where are you at in terms of getting help??

x x x

Socksxx · Jul 30, 2010 4:55PM

I had this too, I had a mc July 08 and didn't fall again until Feb this year. I also had the really unhelpful "at least you know you can conceive" to be honest it took all the will power I had not to knock them out. In fact sometimes it makes the pain harder when you have been pregnant, I spent a lot of time obsessing over what I had done differently the month I did fall. It is good that your hubby is fine and your first set of bloods have come back fine hope your 2 day bloods bear the same news. It may be the piece of mind that your body is working that will bring you that much longed for bfp xx

angelheart · Jul 30, 2010 4:59PM

its so good to hear a positive story socks, it sounds like you really deserved your bfp. how many weeks are you now?
I can imagine how excited you are!!
xx

Socksxx · Jul 30, 2010 5:26PM

22+5 and I still pinch myself every day. You really will get there, you might not believe it when you do but it will happen xx

Magpie · Jul 30, 2010 6:06PM

I'm so sorry to hear about your ectopic pregnancy. I can sympathise with getting annoyed at people saying "at least you can concieve" as I am 25 and get "at least you found out you have PCOS at a young age" - AGH, I know that's true but it doesn't make me feel any better right now!! I think its hard to look at the positives in a bad situation when we compare ourselves to others who get pregnant easily without any problems, and when there is no guarentee that it will definitely happen. That is fab that your hubby has been checked and is fine, one less thing to worry about.

In terms of getting help, after being diagnosed with PCOS the doctor prescribed me metformin and said to come back when we have been trying for 2 years! I think that's a bit much considering we know what my problem is, so I will probably go back at about 18months and ask to be reffered to a fertility specialist so we can at least check there are no other problems with me or hubby.

I'm very glad for forums like this too, its so lovely to have a support network of people who understand. I don't know about you but everyone in my 'real life' seems to be super fertile!!

angelheart · Jul 31, 2010 5:26AM

def go to another doc magpie, 2 years is unbelievable. They know you have pcos and after 12 months they should be helping you. Dont take no for an answer x x

socks, i am so pleased for you. I hope you are well and enjoying your pregnancy. 23 weeks ish is a good stage isnt it?? sickness etc . . gone but not too big! xx

fed up, anyone care to join me? congrats orange pants!

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