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Troubles after miscarriage
Hi, I'm new to the site and desperate for some support.
I miscarried twins last month (missed miscarriage) and had a D&C on 23rd Oct. It has been such a difficult time for me, both physically and emotionally. The pregnancy news came after my Husband and I had been trying for a while - my periods had been irregular for about one year after finding out my Dad had progressed Cancer. Obviously we were delighted when we found out we were pregnant, excited too that we could share the news with the family. But now, recent news of how my Dad is doing tells me that because we have now lost these babies, he may not be with us long enough to ever see any of our babies in the future. I am so upset about this and can't stop crying about everything really...the fact that we have had a loss, that Dad is poorly etc and the latest news that my sister is Pregnant has really destroyed me. Although I am delighted for her news, I am so upset for me and my Husband. I think I have done an awful thing by telling her I need some space and have asked her not to get in touch for a while whilst I get my head sorted. The Doctor has prescribed me sleeping tablets and anti-depressents to help but this has nerved me too as I am desperate to get preganbt again and worried that the tablets will either affect our chances or harm any future pregnancies.
I am so confused and messed up. Can't ever remember feeling this way and can't see a way out at the moment. It's just too much.
I wonder if anyone has felt this way or has had a similar experience?
Thanks, Em x
I miscarried twins last month (missed miscarriage) and had a D&C on 23rd Oct. It has been such a difficult time for me, both physically and emotionally. The pregnancy news came after my Husband and I had been trying for a while - my periods had been irregular for about one year after finding out my Dad had progressed Cancer. Obviously we were delighted when we found out we were pregnant, excited too that we could share the news with the family. But now, recent news of how my Dad is doing tells me that because we have now lost these babies, he may not be with us long enough to ever see any of our babies in the future. I am so upset about this and can't stop crying about everything really...the fact that we have had a loss, that Dad is poorly etc and the latest news that my sister is Pregnant has really destroyed me. Although I am delighted for her news, I am so upset for me and my Husband. I think I have done an awful thing by telling her I need some space and have asked her not to get in touch for a while whilst I get my head sorted. The Doctor has prescribed me sleeping tablets and anti-depressents to help but this has nerved me too as I am desperate to get preganbt again and worried that the tablets will either affect our chances or harm any future pregnancies.
I am so confused and messed up. Can't ever remember feeling this way and can't see a way out at the moment. It's just too much.
I wonder if anyone has felt this way or has had a similar experience?
Thanks, Em x
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I'm so sorry your having a difficult time.
I had a MMC in july, also with twins. I had a scan at 11wks as I'd had some brown spotting, there were 2sacs but they only measured 8wks. A week later I had a d&c.
I found it very hard to cope with, didn't want to leave the house for the 1st few wks & when I did I had an anxciety attack. I still find it hard at times, it just got easier to deal with as the mts went by.
I cant imagine having to cope with a MC & your Dad being so ill. The only thing I can say helped me was talking about it & how I felt. Talking to everyone on here was a great help, you can be more honest about how you really feel. I often didn't want people to know when I was upset so I would come on here.
I'm here if you need to talk, I hope your Dad is OK.
Take Care
Helen x x
Thanks for your kind words. I think this site is a really good idea. It's great that people can give each other encouragement and hope. When something awful happens it's easy to think that you are the only one, but as I have discovered, I'm not and there is something reassuring in the fact that someone else understands what I'm going through.
I have become so obsessed about my OV dates and my pending period as I am desperate to get pregnant again. I even used OV sticks to see if I was ovulating as I convinced myself after the MMC that I would never be able to have children again. As it happens, I did detect an LH surge the weekend before last and waiting to see now if my period arrives or not this week. Was probably a bit naughty as never waited for a natural period. From what I have read on this site, some women have become PG straight away and some haven't. Just have to watch this space.
Sorry too to hear or your loss back in July. I hope that you are feeling at least a little bit stronger now. I have really cut myself off from family and friends for the time-being. It just seems that there are babies everywhere at the moment. Did you feel like that?
Love Em xxx
Take care, thinking of you.xxxx
I had a mmc last year i found out at 13 weeks after having a tiny spot of blood, i had just told everyone i was pregnant and my cousin was due at the same sort of time, i found it really hard seeing her and when i did i couldn't look at her bump because i felt so mixed up, angry, jealous, i also worried that it meant i wouldn't get pregnant again but i have gone on to have a little girl earlier this year. so please don't give up hope and keep talking about it.
i also tried straight away but didn't fall for a few months, it is hard and i still think about my baby alot but it does ease as time goes on.
I have just returned from popping out to the bank and I had to stop myself popping into the Chemist to get a PG test. Really don't think I am PG but just felt like I wanted it at home to check at the weekend if my period doesn't arrive. Why am I doing this to myself? My periods have been irregular for the last year so if it doesn't arrive on estimated (complete guess more like) time it will probably be because of that. It is all I can think about at the moment. Know how gutted I'm going to be though if it doesn't happen. Feel so up and down.
Has anyone else felt so desperate to concieve again, regardless of your emotional state?
xxx
Really trying not to obsess about ov sticks and CM but already poas x2 'in case'.
xx
Hope your feeling ok.
The 1st 2mths after my MMC I was obsessed with getting preg again & was so upset when AF arrived. I guess I felt being preg again would help me feel better. As the mths have gone on I no longer feel as desperate as I did that 1st mth. I am still obsessed about getting preg, I take my temp, I use fertilityfriend.com to track my cycles, I'v just bought OV sticks for this mth. Sometimes I think maybe its not good for me to do all those things. I'v said if I dont get preg the mth then I'm going to stop doing all those things for a while.
I'v just been to see my friends new born which went better than I thought. Its the 1st baby I'v seen since my MMC so I wasn't sure how it would make me feel.
Take Care
Helen x x
My dad had a health scare in feb/march this year and even though we were trying nothing happened but when he got the all clear in April, I relaxed, booked a holiday, joined weight watchers and guess what,6th May I found out I was pregnant and am now 34wks.
Its been a tough couple of years but I've finally got through it.xxx
LouMichelle - I'm delighted that things have worked out for you and also that your Dad got the all clear. I'm sure the fact that you relaxed about his scare and with the life changes you made, helped you to conceive. This is what worries me so much. The fact that I can't relax about my Dad getting better because we've been told that he won't. But yet I'm so desperate to get PG so he can meet our first baby. Feel so down and fed up. Struggling to see a way out of this.
Em xxx
Hope you've had a good day today.
Em xxx