Still finding it hard to cope after miscarriage in Feb
It took me nearly a year to get pregnant in the first place and that seemed like a fluke because I normally spot days and days before AF. Out of the blue the spotting eased up last year for one month then I was PG the following month. I found out Xmas day so told my family but lost it 10 weeks in to the pregnancy and I was told my baby had stopped growing at 6 weeks. So for 4 weeks I was carrying a dead baby, oblivious to it. We have been TTC again ever since MC and EVERY single woman I am close to in my age bracket has got pregnant since then! I've tried avoidance but now my best friend told me she is PG and I know I need to be there for her. She means everything to me.The spotting has started again since MC, and its actually got worse. I cry all the time, I went shopping with my mum yesterday and we had to go home early because I couldn't deal with it. Then went again today with both my parents. It turned out they wanted to buy me a watch for xmas to try and cheer me up. I tried telling my mum i didn't feel up to it but she wouldn't listen. The sales assistant put a watch on my wrist and I just burst into tears. It was so embarrassing and now I feel guilty my parents had to see me like that. I've been trying to avoid babies, pregnant woman etc. I got told my hormone tests were fine but then I found out I'd had a day 3 test done on day 21 of my cycle. Now I have to go through that again and I'm terrified its going to show I have POF. I'm not coping I don't know how I'm going to get through this.