Just Want The World To Go Away
that's how i feel right now...i miss my beanie and i could just cry and cry and never stop...i hate my body so much for punishing me like this...
i can't have another baby, not because there's anything wrong with me...but i think i'm still in shock over everything that happened...the thought of it happening again makes me feel physically sick. my head is a mess today, i'm so all over the place and i don't know what's wrong with me.
i want my baby back...i wanna feel excited again.
don't get me wrong i love JJ with all my heart and he means everything to me but i have this little empty part inside that really hurts and nothing can fill it.
i should have been 20 weeks next tuesday...miss you beanie x
i can't have another baby, not because there's anything wrong with me...but i think i'm still in shock over everything that happened...the thought of it happening again makes me feel physically sick. my head is a mess today, i'm so all over the place and i don't know what's wrong with me.
i want my baby back...i wanna feel excited again.
don't get me wrong i love JJ with all my heart and he means everything to me but i have this little empty part inside that really hurts and nothing can fill it.
i should have been 20 weeks next tuesday...miss you beanie x
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I know exactly how you are feeling. I was feeling the same on Wednesday.
I was only 6 weeks when i lost mine 2 weeks ago but i still have the empty feeling inside. I'm starting to ttc again as i am so desperate to have a baby but i am also very scared of it happening all over again
Big hugs xx
the consultant said that i technically had 2 miscarriages within 4 weeks even though only 1 of them was a "baby" (if u get what i mean) and i honestly think i'm traumatised by it all, i couldn't go through it all again...i'm a mess x
That sounds very complicated and even more devastating than a normal mc so i understand how traumatising it must have been for you.
I really do hope that things will get easier for you with the support from your oh and family and hopefully from us on here too when you want to rant/cry etc.
xxxx
I am so sorry to hear that you are struggling like this, we had our mc's at around the same time didn't we.
I no longer know how far along I would be, obviously know I where I would be roughly, about 20 weeks like you but this has definitely helped me. I am sorry you are not feeling stronger at this stage, I wish I could take your pain away flower.
You and your body have been through so much, you need to give yourself time hun.
Give JJ a squeeze from me, he is lucky to have such a wonderful Mummy.
Love and hugs MrsH xxx