Have a massive problem.
I am a regular user of this forum but i have changed my name as i feel so stupid for getting myself in a terrible situation, i had my baby in August so he is just over 4 months old and im pretty sure im pregnant again. We have been using the withdrawal method until my hubby goes for the snip, i know its not a contraceptive method, we only did it a couple of times and it took us a while to conceive all my pregnancys so just never thought it would happen to me,I just cant have another baby! We have 3 already, we could probably just afford another, my oh has a good job im a stay at home mum but i just cannot do it, i dont think i could cope with another, i dont have family to help, my mum died a few years ago and we dont speak to hubbys family. We ar on our own. I wanted to start concentraing and raising my family after number 3. I cant bring myself to test, i know it will be positive, i will just crumple i just dont know what to do. I have`nt had a period yet, i had what im sure was implatation bleeding about 8 weeks ago, im exhautsed and dizzy. I have been putting it to the back of my mind for so long, i know it sounds awful but i just cannot cope with another little one, i love my children dearly but its such hard work every single day, another one wouldnt be fair on the others. Ive been so stupid, i dont know what to do.