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BACK TO WORK!!!!!!

and it wasnt as bad as i had thought. i was soooo nervous i brought bach rescue remedy and must have had half the bottle before the bus had even arrived lol.
i found out more stuff about them not paying me sick pay when i had swine flu, well i thought it sounded suss when a collegue asked why they wernt paying me, when i had been told it was a policy change that everyone knew about except me in january...so why did my collegue ask why?

well it turns out that the company policy HAS changed but its is to do with how many sick days you have previously or something, and its is at the managers discresion another collegue was off sick 3 weeks ago and got paid sick pay.

then when i had my back to work meeting my manager asked how i was and i said how stressed i was cos of the money situation and he got all flustered and went red, looked guilty and said, looking at a form, oh, i see you are still a level two csa, lets make you a level 3 (advanced) and give you a pay rise, so ive gone from ??7.33 an jhour to ??7.70 and in six months it goes to ??8.10

then he mentioned how he had to get this form he was filling out sent asap because he was ment to have done it months ago but forgot.... this was the form to let head office know i was coming back!
i wasnt on the redar till this saturday! so i couldnt have been paid sick even if he wanted me to have it cause i wasnt on the system as even working there!!!!
so it was all his fault!
im cross but i have decided to keep shtum i just dont have the will to fight and everyone is being nice to me at the moment i just dont want that to stop like before, plus i have a rise yay!

my ??900 beautiful wedding dress went for a measly ??70 despite having 16 people watching it. i am so gutted i even cried i cant believe its going at less than the cost of a weeks food shop. v. sad.
and my veil and tiara didnt sell at all as it didnt meet my reserve, so we are as cash strapped as we were before really.
just spent hours listing loads of junk on ebay which hopefully will go a little way towards a breathing space!
http://shop.ebay.co.uk/merchant/colbourneclan_W0QQ_nkwZQQ_armrsZ1QQ_fromZQQ_ipgZ25
have a look, nothing baby related.... mainly hubbies stuff lol but he deserves it at the momnet as he is in my serious bad books as ive cauught him downloading porn online again. im sooo mad and hurt by it. im horribly self loathing as it is, i dont need him getting his jollies off to gorgous shagging women while i frumpily snore upstairs. i just cant handle that kind of rejection. so the fun continues....

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  • Congrats on the pay rise! That's good news x

    Sorry about your wedding dress, that must've been heartbreaking!

    Well done on the ebay clearout - every penny helps but more importantly lots more space in the house image Look at it as a spring clean rather than trying to raise some cash image

    We're doing a car boot sale in a couple of weeks - both for the cash but also cos I am sick and tired of having so much junk in the house!!

    Don't fret about the porn - I doubt very very much it's a reflection on how he feels about you! He loves you xx Have you told him how it makes you feel?
  • yes thats the problem hun, its been several times and i get upset the last time i was in the throws of deep pnd and didnt even get mad, i just cried and told him i understood why he did it beacause i was so disgusting and worthless, bad mum bad wife ugly and fat. and he cried and said he was so sorry that he would never do it again that h would never risk making me feel like this again, and he has.
    its not the porn i mind so much just how it made me feel and how willing is to do it again and make me feel like it.
  • I am sure he doesn't do it because he thinks any of those things! I confess, I've watched porn with and without Takers but not cos I think he's not sexy. Can't explain it really - it's the whole fantasy thing I guess.

    Sorry, I am probably making it worse! What I am trying to say is I would be very surprised if he thought any of those things about you and he probably thought you wouldn't know so wouldn't get upset.

    Talk to him sweetie x x
  • Brill news on the payrise, and although it's no immediate compensation for losing a weeks pay, longer term you'll get more benifit from it.

    I can sympathise on the crap amounts from ebay. I sold on a beautiful brand new designer baby outfit we were given ( too small for Ciaran as it was newborn). I know it cost over ??20 new and I only got the measly opening bid price of ??4.99.

    Can't comment much on the porn. There is a lot of fantasy involved and sometimes it's about getting more 'ideas' to spice things up. Like SB says it's often not about the fact that a partner isn't sexy anymore (certainly not in BIL's case).

    I think having a chat with him will be needed - just so you can say what you need to, and maybe try to find what he's getting out of it.
  • About time they gave you a payrise by the sound of things! And can't believe your boss didn't submit the form to let Head Office know you were coming back, that's shocking!

    I'm struggling to sell some maternoity clothes on eBay at the mo, they're brand new and summer clothes from Next/Mothercare but nobody wants them, humph!! Must have been sad to see your wedding dress go though : (

    And the porn thing...my sis is going through a horrid time with her hubby at the mo with a similar thing, he's actually admitted he has an addiction, and she is so upset and low. They are having some counselling to try and get through it and for her to understand why he does it, but at ??30 a session it's a pricey way to try and get through things. I do feel for you hun, but you must try and sit down and have a real talk through it with him again, for your own sanity, and try to find out why. Grrr, men!!

    Iz & SKye xx
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