Hey all. Been debating about posting this for some time as I don't want to be judged on it. I am currently onto pregnancy number 7. 2 live births, a stillbirth and 3 miscarriages. I was 15 when I fell on my first and as you can imagine shocked. I stayed in school and sat all my exams etc. It took 18 months for us to concieve our 2nd child who was born an angel at nearly 26 weeks. Then on our 3rd we used Clomid as I had some issues.
With this pregnancy it seems to have happend so quickly, our doctor had told us to go back and see her in 6 months to start clomid but on the first month of trying we got our BFP. It was a text book conception. The issue I am having is that I don't seem to be bonding with this baby the same as I did with the others. I just don't feel any emotion in paticular. I think its down to it being so simple this time that I am scared it will just be snatched away so its easier to become detatched. There will be 22 months between my youngest and this one and that scares me too. What if I can't cope? I had PND after my first (have been fine since) but so scared that it could happen again. I am just terrified I will not bond with this baby. I love it, I know I do. I was so sure I wanted one more baby and now its happened I am terrified =( Anyone ever felt the same?