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Should i be "over it"
summer_76
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Well we are approaching what would have been the twins first birthday and i am feeling a little delicate. I always feel guilty for feeling so emotional about it as if they hadnt gone to play i wouldnt have Toby. Itssuch a mix of things but it still feels so raw
Shouldnt i be over it my now?
Shouldnt i be over it my now?
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Big hugs sweety xx
Thinking of you
Em x
hugs x xx
My Little Angel
I felt your presence there inside of me,
nestled soft and warm;
Sweet scent of baby's breath,
precious words left unadorned.
I saw your tiny heartbeat,
then I knew that you were fine;
A perfect baby we created,
one that would be mine.
Then that tragic day it came
there was nothing I could do,
Only wait and hope
for the precious life of you.
Yes in the beginning
your daddy was afraid;
Only he would love you unconditional
and never run away.
He loved you more this I do know,
as he cried for you that day,
When the doctor said that you were gone,
daddy wanted you to stay.
He would have held you close to him,
and see your perfect form,
A gift of daddy's love,
would have kept you safe and warm.
Only now you are an angel over me
beautiful and bare,
My heart would hurt if you cried for me
and mommy was not there.
Still we are together in my heart and memories,
You are still a part of my memory.
Rest gentle now 'sweet baby' there is no pain
you are never alone,
I know you are with the guiding angels
in you peaceful home.
I will come with you someday
only now is not my time,
Then we will be together again
again you will be mine.
Thank you ladies - once more you are fantastic shoulders x
That poem just made me cry my eyes out! I'm going to print it out and put it with the rest of Ian's things!
To be honest hun, I don't think you ever get over loosing babies, I know I'll never get over loosing Ian I just have to hope the pain gets easier!
My thoughts are with you, it's not an easy time thinking what if's! Do something special to remember the twins by! We let a baloon off so Ian could play with it in the clouds, I'll do it every year!
Take car hun! Xxx
I'm glad you both liked the poem and hope that it didn't upset you xxx
There's certainly no time limit to feeling better so don't beat yourself up about it. The balloon is an amazing idea - love it. I got a Pandora bead for my bracelet for each of my lost babies (one called Faith, Hope and Love and the other was Sun, Moon and Stars) and when Freddie's playing with my bracelet we look at the pram on there and the F for Freddie and the 2 beads for the babies we never got to keep
Big hugs xxxx