My pregnancy after stillbirth at 26 weeks!
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I wrote a blog post on my stillbirth story which I'm going to copy and paste here, so if it doesn't make sense in some spots it was directed to friends and family! Feel free to ask questions though! Sorry that it's so long..
My story starts on January 18th 2013 when I did a pregnancy test and surprise surprise it came back positive, but for my baby her story had started 8 weeks ago. Being only 17 this was such a shock for me and I was so scared, I think I would have still been petrified even if I was 30 to be honest, I'd heard so many horror stories of pregnancy loss I knew I would never be able to deal with it. The second I saw that positive pregnancy test I loved my baby with everything I had. My pregnancy went well, at my 12 week scan I found out that I was actually 15 weeks which was great because I couldn't wait to meet my baby and that just cut off 3 weeks. I had no morning sickness other than vomiting once on christmas morning (I had no idea why) and then once when I was about 16 weeks. I put on no weight which was surprising because I was eating a lot, but I've never been able to put on weight. Thats a whole other story! I absolutely hated the thought of even going near McDonalds and the thought of eating a burger or anything from there made me need to vomit. Smells were way too overwhelming for me that I even had to buy roll on deoderant and stop wearing perfume altogether because it as just uhhh, too much! At 18 weeks exactly I started to feel little kicks, it was the most amazing feeling ever and one I will never forget. Time seemed to be flying by and before I knew it, I was 20 weeks pregnant and heading to my 20 week scan. They checked everything and my baby was absolutely perfect, SHE was perfect. I was so surprised as I swore I was having a boy. One week later as I set up her tallboy that I'd bought that day I noticed I hadn't felt her kick like normal, me being the google freak that I am, googled it. Most answers said 'oh 21 weeks my baby did that too and she's fine' or 'go get checked just to make sure' so I did just that. A midwife used a doppler to try and find the heartbeat, after about half an hour she assured me everything was fine and sent me home, even though we hadn't heard the heartbeat clearly she told me that she was obviously close to my back and hard to find, which explained the pain I'd had earlier that day. I went home happy to be reassured, but I was still a little scared. I drank cold water, orange juice, jumped around but I felt nothing. She had been a very active baby, I knew something wasn't right. 3 weeks went by (no movement, but I had been reassured everything was okay so I believed that everything was okay) I went to my 24 week appointment, my sister came with me. A new midwife did all the normal stuff, she organised for me to have my glucose test done, all that. She did a doppler also, but she couldn't find the heartbeat. She then also reassured me that everything was fine and it was normal. I knew that nothing was normal about it, but I trusted them to know what they were talking about. On the 25th of May 2013 I had my 26 week appointment, I had a midwife who was so enthusiastic and asked if I wanted to see my baby. My mum was with me at this appointment and was concerned about me not feeling movement. We went into the ultrasound room and there was my baby, curled up in a little ball right down the bottom. The midwife told me she might have just been sleeping, I told her that i'd felt no movements so she called in a midwife that had been a midwife for 20 years. She seemed so busy, she came in, looked at the screen for 2