C-section after full labour
So I just wanted to get this off my chest as it's been weighing me down for quite a while :-( I gave birth to my first baby in July last year, and I had the most straight forward pregnancy and start to labour. My waters went in the early hours of the morning and I laboured fine throughout the day. I got to 10cm with no pain relief, not even gas and air (which was a big surprise to me thinking I would be a complete wimp!) I was finally taken to delivery suites and was pushing well for 2 hours, but my little girl decided it would be fun to turn in the birth canal and get herself stuck. This led to me needing an EMCS.
Immediately after giving birth I was so relieved about my baby being ok I didn't give the birth much thought. But from the following evening until now I can't help but feel like I was cheated out of the delivery. I know the most important thing is that myself and my daughter are healthy, but I feel like I went through 99% of the birth without the amazing part of pushing my baby out. This in no way means I think c-sections are easy, it took months for me to feel 'normal' again and it was a tough recovery.
This is something that really affects me to this day, so much so that when I read of another woman having a natural birth I am filled with jealousy and a sadness that I couldn't do it. I tried talking to my husband about it, but he doesn't see why it should be an issue for me. Does anyone else have experience of this? I love my baby girl to pieces, she just means the world to me, I just wish I could have finished the job of pushing her out!