Struggling - CVS tomorrow **frustrated update**
Apologies in advance for the woe-in-me post but I'm struggling a bit today. We're on holiday at the moment but tomorrow drive straight from the hotel to the hospital for our CVS, to see if we can continue with the pregnancy or whether we need to terminate, due to a genetic condition within the family.
Trying to stay relaxed about it, whilst also feeling pretty twitchy - I feel sick still anyway (constantly) and yet also nervous-sick which seems unfair. Just feeling a bit pathetic - I'll take the bloating and the stomach pains and the nausea and the sickness and the exhaustion and the back pain if everything's ok, I just can't bear the thought of having a miscarriage from the procedure tomorrow (low chance - generally 1% risk and only 0.5% risk in this hospital but still a risk) or needing termination in a week's time. It's making me want to hibernate until the results are back and I'm here in this beautiful place on holiday, not even wanting to go outside.
I've been so calm and matter-of-fact about it up until now (we knew we'd go down the CVS route when we started TTC - we opted for this instead of IVF with pre-implantation genetic diagnosis, which had a whole load of other cons that made it unsuitable for us at this stage so I knew I'd have to face this) and I'm a bit believer in 'if it's meant to be' but even so... wibble.
Not sure what the point of this post was, I'm just tearful and anxious and needing to offload!
** Update - Tuesday **
Typically despite all the effort of going for an early scan at 8 weeks to be really accurately dated so that the CVS was done at exactly 11+3 (today, according to dating scan), turns out my original dates were right after all, so I really am only 10+5 today which meant they couldn't do it. I've been booked back in next Monday (11+4) so more waiting. I'm pretty disappointed, not just with the extra waiting, but the timing is bad as I'll not have the results before my 30th birthday celebrations (which had specifically been moved 2 weeks after my birthday so that I would know) AND I'll get the results the same day as starting a new job - talk about stressful
Thank you for all of your support - it means a lot.