The biggest undiscussed feeling????
If you told me a week ago I was gonna write this post I wouldnt have believed you. And I know im gonna get judged for it but I dont believe im the only one out there that has ever felt like this and I think its a subject that maybe needs discussing.Have had my 20 week scan and very relieved that all is well esp as havent felt baby move (placenta is at front so at least i know there is a reason) neway i digress. I have been blessed with twin boys but have just found out that my second and final pregancy is a boy, and i cant believe how disappointed i am that it is not a girl. I feel absolutley retched for feeling like this esp as my best mate is desperatly trying for a baby. I know I am so lucky to have two healthy children and that this pregnancy is going to plan, and i know i will love this baby when he arrives but i still cant shake this deep disappointment. I always though i'd have boys and i love boy things , football, rugby etc but I so wanted a mother daughter relationship. Ive told you all as dont want to admit these feelings but feel that talking and being honest prevents future issues. My hormones have been all over the place with this pregnancy so i guess that is not helping, i just want to cry and yet i know so many of you have got real things to cry about. i just wish that someone had said before that i might feel like this, its never been a subject ive read about, but maybe its only me that has been this selfish.
sorry its a long post and i wil pull myself together now!