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Should I leave him?
Hi all,
I was hoping to get some meaningful advice about my relationship which has been quite rocky from the start. I don't know where to start...I feel so tired, mentally and emotionally drained. Oh and I have been together almost 3 years...we have had trust issues from the start, but have somewhat worked things out. I hit myself on the head for staying with him and I know its my fault for giving him repeated chances. I've always heard the saying "fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice shame on me" and it is ever so true. Shame on me. He did not cheat on me...he lied, almost about everything. We had much passion and intimacy but have always lacked communication.
Then one day, lo was born. We moved in together when I was seven months pregnant. It was fine at first, but now I am feeling mentally drained from all our bickering matches. It was impulsive for us to have moved in so quickly. Lo is now 5 months and I have never pictured myself being a single mom. It is a very hard thing for me to accept, and I have learned to bite my tongue with him to keep peace around lo. I would hate for her to see mommy unhappy but it seems I would be unhappy either way if me and Oh split up or stay together. I don't know what to do. I have tried to talk with him many times about this and we end up fighting...I have tried to bite my tongue, and now, i feel much more resentment towards him everyday. He gets upset when I want to take a break from the relationship to think and de-stress and he gives me a hard time about taking care of lo. He becomes very uncooperative and seems he wants to do everything to make it as difficult as possible on me. I know the answer to my problem seems obvious..leave him. But it is not that easy..my heart would be broken if lo didn't know her father as much as she would have if i stayed. Any enlightening words...im so lost i dunno what to do.
I was hoping to get some meaningful advice about my relationship which has been quite rocky from the start. I don't know where to start...I feel so tired, mentally and emotionally drained. Oh and I have been together almost 3 years...we have had trust issues from the start, but have somewhat worked things out. I hit myself on the head for staying with him and I know its my fault for giving him repeated chances. I've always heard the saying "fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice shame on me" and it is ever so true. Shame on me. He did not cheat on me...he lied, almost about everything. We had much passion and intimacy but have always lacked communication.
Then one day, lo was born. We moved in together when I was seven months pregnant. It was fine at first, but now I am feeling mentally drained from all our bickering matches. It was impulsive for us to have moved in so quickly. Lo is now 5 months and I have never pictured myself being a single mom. It is a very hard thing for me to accept, and I have learned to bite my tongue with him to keep peace around lo. I would hate for her to see mommy unhappy but it seems I would be unhappy either way if me and Oh split up or stay together. I don't know what to do. I have tried to talk with him many times about this and we end up fighting...I have tried to bite my tongue, and now, i feel much more resentment towards him everyday. He gets upset when I want to take a break from the relationship to think and de-stress and he gives me a hard time about taking care of lo. He becomes very uncooperative and seems he wants to do everything to make it as difficult as possible on me. I know the answer to my problem seems obvious..leave him. But it is not that easy..my heart would be broken if lo didn't know her father as much as she would have if i stayed. Any enlightening words...im so lost i dunno what to do.
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From a different view- we all find babies stressful and sometimes you need to get a babysitter and spend some quality time together to remind yourselves that you are still individual adults and not just 'mum' (covered in sick and poo) and 'dad' (useless, haha).
Best of luck whatever you decide xx
at the end of the day though, no-one including l/o, will be happy if you are staying together for the wrong reasons xx.
If you are having issues with OH there are 2 things to think about 1) how you actually feel (ignore repercussions, consequences, just your gut feelings) and 2) what your girl will learn from your actions.
If you stay: will she learn that as a Mum you have to put up with a floundering relationship for the sake of the kids, live in a stressful situation, accept a partner that lies to you about things? Or will she take from it that if you have relationship problems you work them through, learn how to communicate and make thing better?
If you go: will she learn that when the going gets tough bail out? Or will she learn that sometimes the hardest roads are the ones that make you happy (and by that I mean going it alone and raising a child is really tough, but if you are happy at the end of it, that is the pay off). Do you think she would consider you 'bailing out' when times are hard, or admire you immensely for making a hard decision?
What I'm trying to say is that although we can give advice to you and your OH, whatever happens it's how you deal with the actions that will have the lasting effect on your daughter. You can't be responsible for the relationship she will have with her Dad if you go, no matter how much you try and make it work. He has to do that work for himself. He is her Daddy and that is his job. I speak from experience here as someone who recently became a single mum and I am chasing my tail to keep the relationship between my Son and his Father, and really I should be concentrating on our relationship and what he's learning from me as a Mum.
What I'd suggest is letting someone look after LO for a few hours and sit down with OH and lay all your cards on the table. Total honesty, no matter what's said try to remain calm, even if its hurtful and nasty. Agree to no fighting. If either of you start getting emotional or angry, walk away for 10 mins and start again. You also need to be completely honest with OH about how you feel, even if you don't really know how you feel. Don't think at the end of this conversation you need to come to any agreement with anything. Talk again a day or so later when everything that's been said previously has sunk in and you can look at it objectively.
If you think your relationship is already on the way out you have nothing to lose and the only way is up.
Ok, so when I said I wouldn't say much I lied!
But it's been therapeutic typing all this. I hope it might have helped just a little?
Good luck with whatever happens.
They seperated when i was 11 and got back together, mum later told me it was because she wanted us to be closer to dad and she done it for us. I then told her i put on a happy face and told her to get back with him because i thought that was what she wanted! She wasted 21 years of her life with my dad and we were totally unhappy because of them being together. Im not sure if i explained this right so you will understand but sometimes its better for everyone especially your daughter if you did leave him. xxx
Hope you find the answer you need somehow.