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I'm feeling really low and need to get it off my chest. My hubby had a fit nearly 4 months ago and since then we have been on a rollercoaster of emotional ups and downs he had a ct scan and we were told he had a 5 cm tumour and a smaller tumour, then when he saw a nuerologist he was told that the 5cm area was a cyst and had most likely been there since he was born and they were unsure what the smaller area was so after many consultations they decided to do a biopsy and it was confirmed that he has a grde 1 primary brain tumour called a gangliocytoma, it is completely benign and has a 95%chance of staying as it is now and not doing anything so only a tiny chance that it will grow or turn malignant. He has to go back for another scan in January and if nothing has changed as they expect it wont then they will leave it 9 months and then he will go onto yearly scans, they also think that this tumour has been there for several years (at least 23 and possibly longer). So the outlook is as good as it can be.
Why then do i feel so low and keep bursting into tears and feeling like we have no future. I am really struggling to cope and feel like nobody understands how i feel, i have tried to talk to my parents but my dad just basically tells me to pull myself together and learn to live with it. how do i do that. I have nightmares about losing him and being left on my own with the children which sounds really selfish as its him whos living with it but i am so scared that hes never going to see the children grow up or hes going to get really ill and i will have to watch him die. I know that its unlikely to happen but the trouble is that there is not much info available on the type of tumour he has and most of what is available says they can be completely removed with surgery, trouble with phils tumour is that it is too deep in the brain and they would risk serious damage if they removed it.
Sorry to be so down I just feel like ive got no-one to talk too at the moment
Why then do i feel so low and keep bursting into tears and feeling like we have no future. I am really struggling to cope and feel like nobody understands how i feel, i have tried to talk to my parents but my dad just basically tells me to pull myself together and learn to live with it. how do i do that. I have nightmares about losing him and being left on my own with the children which sounds really selfish as its him whos living with it but i am so scared that hes never going to see the children grow up or hes going to get really ill and i will have to watch him die. I know that its unlikely to happen but the trouble is that there is not much info available on the type of tumour he has and most of what is available says they can be completely removed with surgery, trouble with phils tumour is that it is too deep in the brain and they would risk serious damage if they removed it.
Sorry to be so down I just feel like ive got no-one to talk too at the moment
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I think you should talk to your GP- perhaps there is some sort of support group that could help, even just to talk to someone who is trained or has been in a similar situation may help.
Try to stay posative coz 95% chance of being ok is good.
I don't really know what else to say tbh I hope I have been of some help to you tho
Take care
Kirsty
The diagnosis sounds good so try to stay positive and live for the moment, not easy to do with this all on your mind, i agree about talking to your GP to see if there is any help/support groups or just someone who has gone through the same thing.
Stay strong and feel free to offload, rant or use as a shoulder to cry on.
Hayley xx
Thinking of you, guess xmas morning is mad in your house??