I really am not sure where to start. I had my son when my husband was deployed. We had gone through some pretty rough stuff during the deployment. Anyways, he came back home when my baby was 2 months old. He is 5 months now. I was not excited about his return, I just chalked it up to what had happened when he was gone. We have been going to therapy and working on things. I thought my feelings would change. To cut to the chase, I really don't want him around at all. I often find myself dreading that he wants to be a dad. I wish that he would just up and leave and never look back. I want to be alone with my baby! He is a good dad and he does try to help but I feel so much more content when he isn't around. I feel horrible for feeling like this, please tell me I'm not alone!