Feeling so alone and not knowing what to do
Hey, I'm new here but need an outlet an hopefully some advice.
So I'm 19 and now 10 weeks pregnant. I'm from the care system so I have no family support an no 'mother figure' to speak of.
I've been in a relationship with this 26 y/o guy for the past 8 months. (yes I know its not a longtime but I was on the depo injection at the time of conception). He used to constantly talk about kids and that he wants many kids with me, i on the other hand have never wanted kids and am only just starting to warm to the idea of a little one. He was over the moon when I told him.
We live together and have done for about 3 months now.
He has never really been an affectionateguy, to be honest j don't think he's ever once held my hand, he's only hugged me a hand full of times an almost never kisses me (not even during sex- sorry for tmi). And to be completely honest he only ever touches me when he wants sex. This has made me feel lonely and when brought up in discussion he just tells me I'm over reacting.
I've caught him liying to me and chatting up other females a few moths ago and I even caught him meeting up with his ex girlfriend ( this broke me). I've slowly started to trust him again but he's hidding his phone and only answers it when I leave the room. My phone is always with in his reach I leave it home when I go to the shop or go see a mutual female friend, my Facebook is always logged in on his computer and on my laptop and his is always logged out and he lies about the fact that he even uses it.
Lately on a few occasions ive gone to bed crying feeling crappy about myself (partly hormones partly the way he makes me feel). He lays next to me completely ignoring me and goes to sleep. When I try to tell him that it feels like he's using me and I feel so alone he ignores me and carries on watching t.v or closes his eyes and trys to sleep. Ive tried giving him space and giving him what he wants like I literall
y wait on him hand and foot and when I tell him I do so much for him his responds is never thank you its always 'I never asked you to' but when I don't do these things he sees his bum with me and goes all moody. Its always one rule for him and another for me.
He tells me frequently that he loves me but I honestly think he's just saying that to keep me happy. I don't know what to do because its not just me that I have to think about any more, with a baby on the way I need to think about its future and our stability.... Any advice would be helpful thanks for the read.