Pregnancy from hell - shunned by family - forced to get abortion. Advice???
I just turned 27 this year have had a boyfriend for a year and I found out I got pregnant. Recently made unemployed and still living with my Mam and her selfish partner times haven't always been easy living with them, which has been part of my depression. Plan on getting a place with my boyfriend soon and tying the knot as well. He's very supportive and even tho he's still in uni he wants to make the best of this situation. I'm still in uni too - last year I've been delayed for a number of reasons because of family tensions, the death of my father 5 years prior and having to take care of him etc. I have had depression for a while and before I got pregnant my depression was exceptionally bad I felt like I was losing my mind somehow. I didn't see any point to living even tho I had a lovely boyfriend and a normal life with everything going for me.
In a way this baby come has been like the blessing I have needed. However, my immediate family haven't been able to see that. It's been a whirlwind of so much stress and drama. First of all when I got pregnant I told my mam who didn't look all too happy about the idea even tho she pretended like she did I could just see straight through her.
Second of all, she told my brothers and they forced me to get an abortion from
the get go. Apparently my big brother was so disgraced lol and worried about me that he couldn't go to work and 'what would father think.' Complete guilt trips. My other brother said I should be thrown out the house and change the locks as well. My mother has not disagreed to any of this and this is what hurts the most. I moved out for a while but now I am back.
Today I have been screamed at by my brother and I told my mam about it and she just ignored me. I have felt ill ever since with headaches and I just know this isn't good for my baby. He was like you don't have an effing clue!! I have no faith in you! And I swear to god if you let this baby break up this family I will absolutely curse you all my life! It was horrible.
My mother can't emotionally support me she's cold about the baby she never asks how I'm feeling or anything about it. There is no warmth no excitement no positivity everything is jus negative and it's really getting to me again. I was this close to getting an abortion but I just couldn't do it. Their hostility and anguish actually gave me more incentive to keep it as well because I figured if I got rid of it i could never really look at myself in the same way - especially them! It had to be my own decision and deep down I wanted to keep it even though I have spent days and nights wondering if this was the right thing (but only because of their negativity - would I be ruining their happiness? I asked myself)
Can someone give me some advice here? I'm 17 weeks now and this is my first baby. I would just like someone else's view on this. Is this behaviour from family normal?