Feel so alone
Currently 33+1wks with baby no4 and iv never felt so alone. My h2b and i have 2 children together already and 1 each from previous relationships. The pregnancy was a huge shock to me as after my little girl (prev had 2 boys) i was done and happy, but despite being on the pill it happened. He was over the moon, i however less so and more sheer panic over having 4 and a stepchild who is more spoilt then all the children put together.
H2b hasnt been to a single m/f app, his booking to go out with his friends to place before and just after babies due, his not helpful in any way to me but drives miles out of his way for his child which in turn does his ex the favour, still expects me to go out here and there despite me needing to rest (docs orders) he criticises me to his family n makes me want to cry. Its just all too much and iv been a single parent before i know i can do this but i want him to step up. If i say something i get help for 1 day... thats it.
Just very hard