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DanielleMFM
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Hello everyone,
We're wondering if you might be able to help us with a project we're working on. It's about women who have suffered a miscarriage, but then gone on to have their Rainbow babies - so Rainbow Baby Stories.
If you would like to share your Rainbow baby stories and pictures with us, we would absolutely love to hear them, so please do post them here.
Please note, your stories might be used in an article and on our social channels.Ā
We're wondering if you might be able to help us with a project we're working on. It's about women who have suffered a miscarriage, but then gone on to have their Rainbow babies - so Rainbow Baby Stories.
If you would like to share your Rainbow baby stories and pictures with us, we would absolutely love to hear them, so please do post them here.
Please note, your stories might be used in an article and on our social channels.Ā
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Our children were very excited to meet their new brother or sister. However, when we went for our 20 week scan, our world fell apart when we were told the baby had passed away. No one wants to hear the words...āIām sorryā at a scan and no one wants to be told thereās no heartbeat. I remember screaming but everything else is a bit of a blur. After being induced, I gave birth to our sleeping baby boy Jacob, which was extremely traumatic for everyone. I couldnāt believe I actually had to deliver him and go through the pain of birth to leave hospital without a baby- it was incomprehensible to me. The midwives were amazing and took hand and foot prints of our baby boy and gave us a memory box, which helped a little bit but I was in a complete daze and struggled to accept what had happened. At that moment all of your hopes and dreams feel shattered. I was desperate to be pregnant again and fill the enormous hole losing the baby had created. It was at this point that I found Made For Mums and I found comfort from talking with other people whoād experienced the loss of a baby. The loss of a baby is a lonely one because you donāt feel that you can talk about a baby that wasnāt even born and introduced to people. I found talking online helped me to grieve for the baby boy I loved so much.Ā
A few months later I found I was pregnant again. I was more frightened than excited but due to spotting, I had an early scan and everything seemed fine. Unfortunately, at 11 weeks, we went on holiday and I started to bleed. I miscarried and this resulted in a d and c.Ā This time, because I was still grieving for my baby boy, I was half expecting bad news anyway. ItĀ was difficult as the language barrier made things harder- I donāt speak much Spanish but the doctors and nurses were really good. A male nurse particularly helped me and my mum with the language barrier and when I was leaving told me not to give up and that I would get my baby. This seemed impossible to me at this point but Iāve never forgotten his words or the hope he gave me.Ā
We decided to wait a couple of months before trying again because it had become too painful and we needed time to grieve. In December last year we got an early Christmas present when I found out I was pregnant again. Due to low platelets in my blood, I was being monitored closely and was put on steroids to try and help the pregnancy continue, although itās unknown if this condition had any bearing on the previous losses.
I found every scan torture and cried every time but thanks to my husband and my mum and dad, I always had a lot of support. At my 12 week scan, Iād cried that much explaining my worries that the sonographer, whoād been amazing, was even nervous to scan me but thankfully everything looked good!
We decided that in this pregnancy we were going to do things a bit differently and found out the gender as weād always had a āsurpriseā!
At 16 weeks we went for the gender scan and after it, we decided to tell our children about the baby. With a gender reveal cannon they found out they were getting a sister. My eldest daughter was quite emotional about another baby- you almost forget how traumatic the losses are for the whole family because people donāt tend to talk about it. Although we do talk about Jacob- heāll always be part of our family.Ā
When youāve experienced loss or multiple losses, you never really think your pregnancy will work out and you never think youāre going to be lucky enough to hold your baby at the end of 9 months. Itās an emotional rollercoaster. I found every day really hard and my anxiety was difficult to deal with but family and friends helped me to get through each day.Ā
After my emotional 20 week scan things started to get a little more real but I still had a lot of doubt and worries in my mind. However, Ā Iām pleased to say that my miracle rainbow baby girl Matilda was born 2 weeks early, ignoring the planned section that had been arranged for her! Sheās 7 weeks old now!
Iāll never forget my sleeping baby Jacob (I think about him every day) or the other baby we lost but Matilda has helped us all to heal a little more. She is absolutely amazing and was worth every single worry. We are all completely besotted with her.ššš