Dreading going to bed!!!!
Hey all, I have a 9 month old baby and she is my world! Me and husband take it in turns to have her at night as I just don't sleep at all. My husband seems to get a good night sleep with her but for me she stirs all night waking all the time for her dummy or because she wants me, I feel rough all the time because I always look and feel tired my husband works nights and so its me with her on my own so I don't get any sleep for nearly a week at a time! I dread actually going to bed and it being my nights to have her because I just don't sleep and when I start to drift off she stirs really bad! I broke down about 2 weeks ago saying to my husband I'm not coping well and I'm a terrible mother for feeling this way! I just don't know what I can do to sleep and to not get that dread feeling when it gets time for bed!! I've tried everything! I even went to the docs because I thought I was developing depression but turns out I am just exhausted and the lack of sleep is making me irrational! I walked of mcdonalds the other day because I couldn't for the life of me remember how to say a big mac meal instead it came out erm one of those big burgers that are on the telly the guy looked at me like I was on day release (haha funny now though not so much then haha) so I said it doesn't matter and came home sobbing because I felt like a looney toon! Please oh God someone tell me it gets easier please!