i haven't been on for a while. My hubby and I were ttc but stopped when his depression flared up again. We fell pregnant without actively ttc but on Tuesday when I was just about to hit the 5 weeks mark I began bleeding. It started as light pink spotting and gradually became a worse than usual period. My gp has said that I have to take a pregnancy test in 2 weeks as that's apparently how long it takes for the hormones to calm down. They won't scan me because a heartbeat wouldn't be visible at that gestation which i completely understand. I'm still bleeding I know it may last for weeks yet. I just want to feel normal again. This baby was a complete shock but we were incredibly happy for the few days we knew It existed. We've named the baby I was adamant it was another girl. I know that sounds totally rediculous I know she was still at the cells stage but it's helping us cope with the loss. I feel stupid because I know so many women here have been through so much worse but I can't help but cry and cry and cry. I don't even know why I'm posting this, I'm just hoping someone will understand how much this hurts.