Confused, not a question just need to get things off my chest
First time posting on here, but I just feel like I need to get things off my chest.
This is the first month that my husband and I have being TTC and it is so stressful. I am such a planner and a worrier and when things aren't going my way I get hugely stressed.
I am worried because yesterday (22/10/2016) and today (23/10/2016) I did an ovulation test and they are both positive. A little history on my periods in the past since January
January- Started 25th finished 29th
February- Started 22nd finished 26th
March- Started 18th finished 22nd
April- Started 20th finished 24th
May- Started 18th finished 22nd
June- Started 17th finished 21st
July- Started 19th finished 23rd
August- Started 13th finished 17th
September- We went on holiday for 3 weeks so I took Utovlan from 14th September and I started my period 1st October and finished 5th October, this was very light in comparison to my usual periods.
From 6th October we have (I think the term I have read a lot is baby danced?! But made love- unprotected) 6th, 8th, 11th, 12th, 14th, 16th, 17th, 19th, 21st and 22nd October. I am at a loss as to a positive on OPK this late as surely it should have been earlier.
I just feel so annoyed at myself for taking Utovlan, I wish I had just have put up with AF in order to keep my cycle relatively normal. I really wanted to be able to announce a BFP on Christmas, however it doesn't look likely. I even did a HPT yesterday just in case, but it was a BFN.
Apologies for this little rant/moan as I know people have been TTC for much much longer and I feel selfish, I just have nobody else to talk to this about. Husband does not understand ovulation and LP, I have no girlfriends and I don't want family to know we are TTC.