Reaching out....

Hi, I’m new here....
TTC for over 18 months... I’m 41 and not feeling hopeful.
Always wanted children but just never met anyone that I felt confident to take this giant step with until now and I’m so scared I’ve left it too late.
TTC for over 18 months... I’m 41 and not feeling hopeful.
Always wanted children but just never met anyone that I felt confident to take this giant step with until now and I’m so scared I’ve left it too late.
My journey so far... changed from injection to pill 2 1/2 years ago to start getting that out of my system. Then stopped the pill 18mths ago. Have tracked ovulation, given up drinking, don’t smoke, eat well and do plenty of exercise but no go so far. Started looking at fertility testing with GP in December - I got tests for ovulation and all good there. Partner has done at home sperm test - his count is good but we were going for full test at hospital before referral for fertility treatment but it’s all been put on hold because of Covid.
I had got quite depressed and it’s been putting a lot of strain on our relationship - especially our sex life obviously! My partner thinks I only want sex to conceive - SO not true but he’s become paranoid. And I genuinely don’t do the demanding sex because I’m ovulating - he’s just very sensitive. I’ve tried to keep it as natural as possible, I never wanted to put pressure on things.
I had started to feel positive with being able to move forward with fertility treatment but the hold ups have just put me back to square one.
I’m so sick of the 2 week wait emotional rollercoaster - my body plays a LOT of tricks on me!
2 of my best friends are pregnant - I had to go to a zoom baby shower yesterday whilst waiting for AF who arrived like clockwork in the middle of it!
I was upset and my partner got annoyed with me for it this time, it’s all just getting too much and I just felt I needed to reach out to anyone going through the same, share the journey with people who can understand my head space better. sorry for the long post!
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Do you track your ovulation?
What worked really well for me was the fertility monitor from clear blue. It's a bit expensive, but I liked how easy it was, instead of reading the strips. Maybe something you could look into as well?
I'm sending you positive vibes!
how are you finding the IVF process so far?? I have absolutely no idea what to expect and am as nervous as I am excited at the potential 🙈🙈
I know the feeling! I've researched everything that it is possible to be researched, yet I'm still waiting for my clinic to open, because due to Covid19 they had to close for a while
I know the feeling! I've researched everything that it is possible to be researched, yet I'm still waiting for my clinic to open, because due to Covid19 they had to close for a while